Tuesday, July 08, 2008

I am emot again...sian...everytime few days b4 my period i will be so emot...i hate the feeling. Lazy to work, no motivation, will upset by dear. Sometime i really dun know who to blame. Am i expecting too much? Am i unreasonable to make expectation, actually not expectation, i didt expect much. Am i taking for granted? Am i being not appreciated? I know i cant blame dear coz ya he didt ask me to do it, is i did it willing. I know i cant compare him with others guys, is unfair. He cant put me in the first place because there were always something before me. I know whatever i say now is not fair to dear....but let me be unreasonable and unfair at this moment.

I rem sometime when i ask dear out to town, or to attend jia hui/chun mei bday. One word tired, lazy. Too far....ok i understand, NS what can i say. Must be really tired with all the training. Tired is not a reason for me anymore is an excuse.

Half way typing eugene msn me haha....thanks....he make me feel better. He didt really console me much...but i appreciated.

Posted by snowpoem at 10:14 PM