Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Hmm...lots of things happen this few day. Firstly, i took MC today again hai...i dun feel like taking, coz ya taking mc dun really reflect good in your work. Coz last week i already took one day le...n today i took one again. Actually if my work dun need me to talk then is ok. But my job need my voice to serve customers and talk to customers. Ya so no choice, when i woke up i totally got no voice. When to see another doctor this time round, i think this time the medicine the doctor gave me is better, does had some effect on me. At least i dun cough that much after taking this medicine. Coz the previous medicine that i ate dun help at all, is like getting worse. Hopefully can recover faster and everything back to normal.

Met hong seng and mei today. Poor hong seng got some problems, but i am very glad that he actually share his problem with us. This show that how impt we are....really. Hope everything will be fine for him. I also dun know how to console him, is a bit complicated.

Stupid MSN cant sign in for the whole day, dun know whats wrong.

Monday got my test result, got 66/100. Hmm...initially i was happy coz i pass. But later i realise i can even do better, i wasted it. I aim for a distinction but dun think i can get it le...no matter how good i do for my finally exam, after i calculate can only get a credit (60-70marks). Which i aim 70 and above, shit.....pass is not enough. Anyway exam on the 16aug. So ppl...i will be busy study and might not able to meet u all in augest after my exam, hope u ppl understand.

Anyway so sweet of benson to actually msg me yesterday. Coz he saw my blog. Ask me what happen, y got problem nv call him and tell him. I mean he is really a good friend(he is just like my older brother), although he left the company le...but he still bother to care for us, which i mean very nan de...thanks benson kor kor haha...

Dear will be booking out tml,but he got his chalet to attend tml. So he will be free from thursday till sunday ba...i can only meet dear after sat, coz i got to work at sat also. I want watch batman...everyone was saying the movie was good. We wanted to watch since few weeks ago, but cant find the time out. Hopefully this weekend we are able to watch it. Last few day a bit emot, i mean in a good way. Hmm... realise i am very fortunate in this relationship. In a relationship i believe most impt is trust. We trust each other a lot, and i believe we nv lie to each other b4. There was once when i went club with benson and his guys friends, i wanted to lie that there are gals also, but i told myself i cant. If there is once there will be twice. End up i told dear the true, ya dear was very angry with me and i learn my lesson. I just cant bring myself to lie to dear...in any case or anything. Coz i believe he have the rights to know everything in my life. I am glad that during this four years dear still with me. I mean i wont know if next time he enter uni or the society, he will definitely knows more gal. And by the time i guess is normal that he will make compare. Then i might not be the one that he will stay 4ever le...ya is very hard to say really. Is not that i dun have the trust, but is normal. Of coz i hope all this wont happen. But really if one day it happen, i also have to accept it right haha...(pray hard wont....). Anyway i am happy with this relationship, compare to others i always felt i am very fortunate. I am a lucky girl...i met someone i love so does him.

I actually felt touch when that time raining, dear took an umbrella and fetch me to his house(ok...now u ppl must be thinking is ah yo...is a normal thing that he must do ma...coz i am his gf). But to me at least he make an effort to do it ar...he can say no...and ask me wait for the rain to stop. I just think although he is my bf does not mean he have to do this kind of things.And when i fall sick that day, i actually slept the whole day at his house, felt bad coz i didt actually have the time to accompany him. He didt wake me up and let me slp as long as i want. He still rem i told him my lower back actually ache, and he help me massage without me telling him to do it. I really appreciate the things his does, although it might not seem great. Small small little things will make me happy and fly to the sky le haha...(Ok...ppl i admit i am a super easy contented gf haha...can say me silly or what but this is who i am).

Posted by snowpoem at 11:27 PM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Can my parent divorce...seriously...i got my reason. Sometime divorce might not be a bad choice. Life may be better after it. I broke down today....coz i had enough.

Posted by snowpoem at 1:23 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I on MC today...my throat were already quite dry last few days, but only until today i decided to go see doctor. I tried to drink a lot of water le...but still like that. Anyway the doctor very friendly also haha...Gave me a lot of medicine sia...sore throat medicine, cough medicine, and something like sweet de...for me to eat to smooth my throat. Still can talk haha...but just the throat very dry.

Anyway dear 21st birthday coming soon le....Oh no....i still dun know what to get for dear and what to plan on that day. Anyway suggestion friends????? Need ideas badly haha....

Posted by snowpoem at 5:57 PM

Quick update coz going ot slp le....today one whole day stay at home to do my online assignment. I think i very stupid lor....did a lot of careless mistake which can be avoid totally,then at least i can get full marks haha...on average i only get 79/100 which i aim for at least 80marks. The online assignment contribute to 10% of our overall course. Which is like a give away marks. so must try to get as high as possible. Hai...i am not happy with what i got, coz i know i can do it better. So the whole day from 4pm till 12pm...(in between got rest of coz) i been sitting in front of the computer doing the assignment. My off day was burn...sad....4ever when i take my off or leave is for my study. Is not like for me to rot or rest(how i wish i could). But anyway glad that i finally finish it...was worry last few day cox i had not done. The load was of my mind now,can rest for a few days. But major exam coming soon again....OMG. I scare...by the way...my lower back ache recently. I try to rub myself but still pain. Any suggestion as how to ease the pain?Is it coz i stand too long with heels during work?

Anyway poor dear was appointed as duty officer today. Until now 12plus le...he still cant go to bed...and tml morning he have to wake at 5.3oam. I always compain i had a hard life haha....guess dear is worse then me right now....anyway choo lee(new PFC) told me a sentence which i find it quite true. "Understanding is one issue, but accepting is another issue". Coz i use to say i understand understand dear...but ya...accepting is another issue. Did i really accept?Or just understand without accepting?

Posted by snowpoem at 12:26 AM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Today went lunch with benson and boss....coz benson last day tml. Boss is a person that for every sales staff that came in he will give them a treat, and when they are leaving he would gave them a treat too. Hmm...i find that was very nice of him to actually do such thing. Coz seriously speaking sales staff come and leave quite often, that mean boss have to keep treating haha...

Anyway i think he should spend more time with the operation side(teller,bank officer), to us sales side(pfc,sa) he quite ok. But to the operation they dun like boss. Coz they felt boss dun understand them, so i really think boss should talk to them more,understand them more...may be treat them more too haha...I starting to respect boss more compare to when i just came in. Me too dislike him at first. Ok...still declare i dun respect my manager....good colleague but not good manager. Her rules are death....like that means like that....sometime can really get so angry with her.

I was thinking if one day happen my boss and manager going to know and read about my blog...wow....die sia haha....but i really realise most of the branches CSM they dun hide in the back room de...will always come out and help the tellers and sa. Hmm..wondering y my branch CSM is like that. That is y i dun like to work under a female manager. They can be emotional at times which is bad. Haha....oopes me too...

Posted by snowpoem at 11:48 PM

Today went to have branch dinner buffet at Orchard hotel. Coz benson leaving on this coming thursday(his last day), thus we went to have simple dinner and bought his a bag. I forgot to bring camera with me tonight hai....

Anyway lets talk about benson....he is a funny,entertaining guy. Dun know since when he become my lunch kaki....most of the day we had lunch together. Now he left going to blame him if i have to eat alone in the future haha...(kidding...can always look for other ppl oopes...hehe...). But i mean really he is a good colleague,good friend cum good lunch kaki...he does really help me a lot when there is customer issue and problem that i cant solve. He will ask me what problem and if within his mean he will be more then willing to help me. Really appreciate him...(benson dun be too happy when u read it k....but is true la..haha...). Hai...sad he leaving....no one to crack joke,talk rubbish in branch,try to act like boss when boss not around. Question ask what we doing. And end up most of the time he will be walking around talking to ppl...i really going to miss him as a friend. Oh...ya...and he like to joke around our relationship haha...always say we have something...(sort of girl and boy friend). Just in case u ppl dun know, he is already attached so am i. But ya he purposely like to make fun of me. The more i denied then more he will say,until i got no words to prove myself. Even boss say he treat me very good haha....ya but all is for fun...he just like a older brother to me....ya take gd care of me when in the branch haha....hungry will give biscuit.

All the best to him....can he that he is very happy that he is leaving. At least he wont be so stress anymore, dun need to run sales and hit target. He is a good PFC...he dun bluff to his customers(dun be surprise some actually does). He sell his products the right way....letting ppl know all the pros and cons...but yet he still able to sell very well. He use to have a nick name call RP king...that means very good in selling insurance. The king of selling insurance. Anyway hope will be happy at his new work place and dun forget us. Going to miss him....

Dear are quite busy and stress this few weeks, coz he say he have exercise. Told me not to expect too much msg from him coz he will be very busy. But i guess dear had already tried his best to msg as and when he can ba....when he got the free time. Just hope dear can faster ORD really.....ever since he enter NS....hmm....i realise there is a lot of problem coming up....how sld i say...b4 that we hardly cold war,unhappy with each other(does but not that offend). But now is like when he is busy or stress with his NS...then he wont have the time and energy to bother about me. His attention wont be on me and the way he say something dun sound good. Eg like...hmm...i will going to have this and that so dun expect me to have time or whatever with u....(i mean i understand what he means, but just the way he put it across not very nice) In turn, i will get unhappy and angry, and thus do blame his occasionally. Just hope he faster ORD then hopefully will back to normal and everything will be fine again.

Posted by snowpoem at 12:20 AM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

I actually felt bad about what i blog yesterday(may be coz i not emot today le haha...back to the cheerful xueshi). After what eugene had said, it sort of enlighten me haha...from his point of view(as a guy). Funny things was christina end up in our conversion too...with the same problem i face haha...Thus, after yesterday night, eugene was given a new name call Premier Relationship Consultant(PRC). Coz in our company there is a position call personal financial consultant(PFC). So eugene naturally become our PRC haha...is even most high class...premier lei...so we were his premier customer. In our contact, premier customers means very rich de haha...

Sometime is just great that i have this group of colleagues. To me is not anymore colleagues, is more of friends to me le....becoming very close. Of coz i nv forget my old friends......i really nv nv....i still miss my mei,li shan,jia hui,ling,xin,hong seng,class 5a,my lao po marie...and many many more. I felt fortunate with so many friends around me, thanks ppl...coz of u guys i nv run out of friends and nv felt boring in my life. Kind soul and kind ppl....

Specially to dear..."Dear dun mean to let u felt lousy and bad,just want to say out how i felt. I know i sld not had add in more problem and stress to u especially when u r inside =). Sorry...we shall be lovely again =)"

Posted by snowpoem at 11:26 PM

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

I am emot again...sian...everytime few days b4 my period i will be so emot...i hate the feeling. Lazy to work, no motivation, will upset by dear. Sometime i really dun know who to blame. Am i expecting too much? Am i unreasonable to make expectation, actually not expectation, i didt expect much. Am i taking for granted? Am i being not appreciated? I know i cant blame dear coz ya he didt ask me to do it, is i did it willing. I know i cant compare him with others guys, is unfair. He cant put me in the first place because there were always something before me. I know whatever i say now is not fair to dear....but let me be unreasonable and unfair at this moment.

I rem sometime when i ask dear out to town, or to attend jia hui/chun mei bday. One word tired, lazy. Too far....ok i understand, NS what can i say. Must be really tired with all the training. Tired is not a reason for me anymore is an excuse.

Half way typing eugene msn me haha....thanks....he make me feel better. He didt really console me much...but i appreciated.

Posted by snowpoem at 10:14 PM

Oh...no oh no...bad news bad news....my class only 55% pass the test,i hope i am not one of the failure. Now at this moment i only hope for a pass and not aiming too high le...

Anyway this few week dun know why i am getting more sian to go work le...it was not previously,i dun know why. It seem like i am losing motivation to work recently. I dun really look forward to work nowadays anymore. How????? I need to find new motivation and aim in work again. May be i target everyday at least refer 1 customer that can close,ya at least one that close. Next is actually christina, but she is teller very hard to work together. Except may be during lunch we can eat together. Enough about work.

Yup...time spent with dear is so little again. But what to do no choice. I just really hope he can faster ORD. Hopefully after NS he will have time for me. But very hard to say...after that he will go into his university. May be after that he will tell me he will be busy again. Sometime just felt lonely when dear was not around. Ok ok...xueshi xueshi...have to be independent independent. Hai...sometime i think i very useless haha...keeping telling myself cant relied and stick to dear too, but yet ya i did....sian....

Posted by snowpoem at 12:16 AM