Thursday, May 21, 2009

Hai...body not feeling quite well this few days. I took half day MC n when back to work this afternoon. Coz no one helps to cover me if i not around. End up i didt went to see doc in the morning, at nitez after work wan to go but too late le...coz got meeting. When can i start to feel better =(

Posted by snowpoem at 11:12 PM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Realise i was totally shag out after dinner. Dam tired....came back knock out till 11plus then woke up. Anyway i realise my past entry all seem so emot n upset. Kk....promise next time shall blog some happy happy things...rather than me always like nagging hahhaha....

Posted by snowpoem at 11:50 PM

Hai...something sure happen after any outing....Y????? Cant i go out happily without any worry and restriction.......

Posted by snowpoem at 1:54 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I waiting for my dear margaret to come back this friday. She been off n leave for more than a month le....and i been covering her during this period. I a bit proud of myself (thick skin hehehhe...) for working this whole month without resting. Even though there were a lot of time i felt like taking MC. But i keep telling myself i cant be so irresponsible for work. So once margaret come back i will be more relax and is my turn to go relax and clear my leave le.......YEAH!!!!! I waiting for my this coming weekend.....i need my rest!!!!

Posted by snowpoem at 12:40 AM

Monday, May 18, 2009

Came home and saw my dad shoes outside, suddenly felt that my shoulder felt so much lighter at the moment. Why must we wait till someone not ard b4 we know n learn to appreciate? I know is mushy...but i kind of miss my dad a lot this few days when he not ard. I felt like telling him how much i need him to be ard and I too love him. But we chinese r just shy to tell our parents all these. Something just seem missing n lack of sth when he was not ard. I nv appreciate his cooking when he cooks everyday for us during dinner. Last few days, we had to settle our dinner ourselves. I promise i will go home eat as often as i can in future.

I felt much relax n less stressful now. As what my dad always taught as since young...be contented in life n nv ask for too much. We face problems along the way but we still must face it. Face it in a positive way....i guess my dad already master it But i still have a lot of things to learn from him in life. My dad nv believe in beating us, he always make us understand, what is right what is wrong. Even when we r growth up, he still worry n take gd care of the whole family. Even though my mum was totally beyond hope. Although he is not financial rich which he always told us. But what matters is our heart.

I cant imagine if one day for what reason he not beside us. I dun know....my dad is my mental support,other ppl can go missing, but not my single family member. I came to realise how impt is my dad only just now. For any reason i dun show my love towards him....but deep down i respect him the most in this world. He work hard for everything, suffer a lot in his while life. I not sure and cant promise...but for now i dun wan him to worry about me and in the future for him to be proud of me and have a better life. I hope i can give.

Posted by snowpoem at 12:00 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

This whole week so many things happen. I am so tired. Firstly i guess i really fail the module quite badly hai....no choice....have to accept it. Retake n pay another 2k. Secondly family issue, the issue that always cause me so mentally tired. For the past 1 week that is no one single day i can slp well. Indirectly affect my work n mood, everyday wake up feel like taking mc hai....my mum is the root of the whole problem. U can say i am a bad daughter, but all of us rather she not ard the house. Without her the whole world seems so peaceful, no one can fully understand wat my family go through. Is mentally torture...sometimes i just wish that after work or sch i can come back rest, but worse.

Thirdly, money....economic is bad temporary my dad is jobless. Mum not working, sis schooling hai...bills still need to be pay. I dun earn a lot too....suddenly realise life is so hard. Sometimes i am just thinking...what will be an ordinary age 23 gal doing with their life? I guess most r still taking parents $, studying, not too much worry ba...for me not only have to support myself, pay everything my own like sch fees, own bills. When my sis in ploy i hope i can support her also, i rather i work harder n suffer, n let her be more relax. Still got HDB loan which i worry the most hai...my dad dun pay regularly...how can i earn more $ to cover all these expenses? In the future i need to support my whole family also hai....

As for work...hai...i just feel like quitting le..but i cant i need the income. I just dun understand how can some ppl just be so irresponsible for their work. Even if u wan or feel like quitting, at least still be responsible for what u do ar....best is Jun...even b4 quitting she still so hardworking, do everything nice nice b4 she left. That sld be the attitude lor...n ya MC...our branch already not enough ppl le...but yet ppl can just take mc just like that. Who suffer? The staff that is working that day. If u r really sick i got nth to say, but some just take mc coz they dun wan come work. I mean depends ma...angry when they treat their job so anyhow, not serious.

Hai....conclusion i am really tired this whole week.

Posted by snowpoem at 11:55 PM

Monday, May 11, 2009

Today is mother's day...went to have a simple dinner. Suddenly got this feeling that i am not really a good daughter hai...i should spend more time at home with them. They hardly see me around hai...felt so bad for my dad. Still worry about result...dun think they will reply me so fast. Anyway school start le...lesson on every monday n friday...dun understand y my lesson always fall on a friday. I going genting in 2weeks time!!!!Excited lei...hahaha...ok la...i nv been b4 ma..somemore so long nv went overseas le...although just malaysia...just wan to get out from singapore for a while. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!

Posted by snowpoem at 1:24 AM

Friday, May 08, 2009

OMG....I cant believe i fail one module. A bit impossible lei...hai...hopefully they calculate wrongly. Going to send e-mail and check and ask for appeal sian....I got 39/100 which i got confident i wont fail that badly ba...i dun wan to retake coz need to pay $2000 lor...which is super a lot la...n waste of time also. i really hope they calculate wrongly. Totally no mood today...so disappointed hai...lets pray hard is they make mistake.....But if really fail then dun know what to say liao...hope they get back to me asap. Dun like pending result...

Posted by snowpoem at 9:59 PM