Thursday, March 26, 2009

Marriage. How you define that? How confident are you to step into it. Who can really understand my concern? I know dear has always been extremely disappointed when he always try to bring up this topic. And i always felt totally lost, i kept slient becoz i really lost, it piss and disappointed him a lot. I am the problem...is not that i dun have faith in him. How to believe in marriage when ever since young and even when i already grown up, my family still in a mess. How to convince myself? Dear told me i cant compare just like that. But how not too? I scare i worry. Everyone fear sth in life, and 'marriage' is just my weak point. I really fear of this word now. Who can understamd how i feel?

What really hurt me was he said "he wont be sure when the next gal come he might just go ahead. Becoz wat is the point if i dun trust in marriage". That will be end of it if i dun trust ba....is not i nv try to convince myself to believe, i tot of it, i dream of it... I did i really did.....is not that i dun wan to discuss. I fear really fear......cant life be simple and happy? Am i too innocent...too childish to think that way le ba...

Posted by snowpoem at 10:31 PM

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Recently so busy with my assignment hai...and exam coming soon on the 21 and 22 april again. Stress...totally got no time to blog. I promise i will back once i done with all my sch work. I miss going out and have fun. Been locking myself at home this whole week to do my assignment(30%). HELP!!!! Why i study ppl also study...but y i seem so stress hahaha...everynight slping at average 2.30am just to rush my 3000 words report. So tired =(