Monday, January 11, 2010

Is year 2010!!!!My first blog of the year...first thing first i finally complete my degree le...i GRADUATE!!!! Wowowoowowoooooooo.........I cant express my happiness by words....is just wonderful after 2 long years of tired nitez classes...with reports,test,project n exam...hopefully i wont end my learning here...i wont know may be few years later i shall go for master or whatever=) Keep on learning is my attitude,but need to take a rest first. Anyway no $$$ also hahahha...to learn driving is my next aim. Ya..n save $$$ go overseas trip!!!!


Seriously there is not much aim for me this year,coz i just completed my studies. Hmm...may be my career ba...going higher with much more responsible n stress at the same time. Nth is yet to be confirm at this moment,but hopefully with any changes i am able to handle.

Last year 2009 i guess was quite a bad year in term of my relationship. Seriously have to apologize to my dear...i hurt him quite badly. No details here...but i know is hard..what done cannot be undone, i seriously hope dear can trust me back totally again. Coz he always like to make fun of me like this time round which guy again. Although he said joking, but deep in his heart really worry ba...hai...5.5years tog near to 6 le...that was the worse incident happen. I always felt so thankful dear did not give up on me which i did. Innocent?stupid? whatever u name it. Do i still love him after a such a long time? The ans is YES!!!!!!! He always ask me y i like to do so many silly things...(dear u sld know=p ). His hand, his body, his smell...i just love to hold his hand, hug n smell his body odor whahahaha...sound weird n crazy. I felt so "sin fu" with him beside me...with him around i know i can depend n relies on him.

Whatever happen in the past i really hope it wont affect us in the future or become a stone in our path. I need a man that can take care of me n the family in the future which i already found n is just beside me. I should really treasure my dear...i once told him i dun believe in marriage in the past. I worry i scare i got no confident in marriage which i use to believe. Somehow or rather, he gave me the confident n belief that marriage can be work out n wonderful. Seriously a man at his age 23 now what r they doing n thinking? Playing around n rotting??? But my dear actually dun mind to settle down, however due to financial issue we r unable. Recently kind of have the feel that is time to settle down. He is the one that can give me my happiness. I wan to tell him..i believe i believe n i believe....hahaha...not trying to propose here...just that he is the right one for me.

He is my first BF...first time i hold a guy hand is with him, first time my hug is him, first time my kiss is him..first time of almost everything thing is with him. He is my first n my last...(provided dear dear want me as his lasts too). Many ppl date with so many guys/gals but still never got someone suitable n still searching. I must admit there were ppl asking me...xs u r still very young y stick to a guy for so long maybe sld try to date more ppl be u settle down. However, although his is my first BF so????The feeling is just right...he is the only one i want to spent with. Exclude my family, he can be consider my next closet kin. I am lucky enough that i dun need to search up n down for the right ones. The right one is playing game now hahaha.....just love him for no reason. Coz Love does not need any reason=)

Anyone who dun believe in marriage just like my classmates, becoz u have not met your right wants. I once never believe in marriage too...the idea was so strong. But as the time pass, i felt deeper n deeper with the guy that i first met, n we r almost tog for 6years. I cant even imagine..i didt even expect when we first started. At first i tot for most can last for 6 months hahhaha...but is 6years now n will be 60years more too...Becoz i already met the one is my life=)

Posted by snowpoem at 12:26 AM