Sunday, September 23, 2007

Was actually chatting with xiao wen just now,asking her about uni stuff.Hai...i really dun know,i wan to get a degree but the $ is really my main concern,one year abt 8k for 4 module.To me is really quite a lot for me.Ppl i really need advice from u all badly.Totally 12 module to complete,which will coz abt 24k total.I cant bank loan,coz she say is if part-time study they will charge u interest every month,not even b4 u graduate.Is it just so difficult to study ma...i just wan to study,must it be tat hard.I really so headache now.What to do we r poor.

Anyway this whole weekend i went over dear house n stay.Coz once he book in tml,3weeks later then can book out again le...they say for every 2weeks they will have field camp,so that means in the further may be 1 month i can only c dear for just 1 time hai...ytd nitez we will drinking at the coffee shop,then saw his bb friends.The first thing his friend said to me was(after they know dear goes into OCS), 'hey...u can start to get a new boyfriend le...'.Shock to heard tat really,in my heart i was thinking really that bad ma...y the first thing he told me was to get a new bf instead of others.Rem dear once told me,his sir say to him this 'when guys goes into OCS,80% of the gf will left them only 20% will stay'.I guess is really quite bad.Imagine,one month see once,just may be for a day.Or worse when they have to go overseas for training(2 time somemore),then is like totally will be 1 month plus...plus cant even contact at all for that period.The whole training will have to last for 9months.Is not long,but yet is not short too.Depends how u c it,i really hope it will pass super fast,but i know it wont.I am afraid,afraid i will give up.Friends please encourage me not to give up when the moments come.I need to find something to commit myself,so i wont feel lonely when dear is not around with me...any suggestion friends?haha...

Posted by snowpoem at 11:39 PM