Thursday, June 10, 2010
Hmm..today was having a casual chat with my of my colleague. I felt so sad for her hai...here is her background. She is 27 now...with 6month old child. Met her husband when she was 16, 10yrs later which is 26 she got married. But from her way of talking...she actually said that if time will be able to turn back she will not marry her current husband, she kind of regretted. OMG!!!! How can it be???They only married for 1 yrs sld be in honeymoon period. How come less then a yr she actually felt that way?? It seem like her husband kind of look her down...hmm...coz he qn her how come after 7yrs of working she still remain at the same position. Whereas for her she is a very contented mother. As long with a job she is contented. N her husband is those very motivated.I guess is different aim in life ba...how no matter what the husband sld love her for who she is ar...I just felt that the husband dun appreciate her which make her felt that way. And she once told me she rather come to work although very tired than stay at home during weekend to face her husband at home. Iszzz it very sad to hear this kind of things??? If i will her, how i hope i can stay at home during my off day to acc my BF =) I really appreciate my dear that no matter what i do he will always give me the support i need, which is very impt a relationship. He never qn me instead always believe n motivate me. Nv look down on me...
PS: But dear if next time u earn much more then me and i am just a little office gal with no motivation also cant look down on me k...=0
Posted by snowpoem at 11:37 PM
Saturday, April 24, 2010
While i was on my way to work everyday. I saw this very old ah ma and ah gong holding hand in hand walking very slowly & carefully together. The moment i saw..i was like OMG so sweet...felt touch too. I mean they are almost in their 70s but yet they can still be so lovely towards each other. Holding each other hand tightly. How i wish when i reach their age me too can hold my dear dear hand together. Retired from work...every morning just like them holding each other hand to go market and everywhere. Dear dear will u going to hold my hand just like them too???
The day i just put on the bracket without the wire...super ugly sia...n uncomfortable...
My teeth before anything was put on...
My tooth extraction with a empty hole!!!!
Blood!!!!After extraction
Posted by snowpoem at 1:23 AM
I will be officially post to hougang branch from next sunday onwards. I didt know it will be that fast...kind of hate working on weekends. I am so use to rest on weekends le...every week i will be only looking forwards to weekends. Now nothing...The saddest things was i am unable to stay over dear place during the weekend anymore. No more waking up late together during the weekend. No more bee hoon dear cook for me during weekend. No more shopping at cwp cold storage/NTUC and store food to eat during weekend. No more rotting together watching TV & play computer games during the weekend. OMG....I seriously miss it dam badly. Am i over emot???? I started crying once i know i cant do all these anymore =( I am just a weekend person...i just want to spent time with my dear during the weekend. But now i cant...the feeling was super sucks. I hate it....
I hate going to new environment, which have to know new ppl totally. I hate changes...but yet i have to keep telling myself i must get use to the place as fast as possible. Actually anything can change, coz i know no matter what i have a dear dear behind me supporting me all the way. Coz i know no matter how bad life is, how life changes....but only one thing dun change which is dear dear. He will always be there for me =)
Recently have quite a few tot, as i grow older...i realize i dun need to much $$$ or too high living standard. I just need to led a very simple & carefree life...my plan was to work harder for this few yrs. But once i get settle down with family & kids...i will want to be a gd wife & mother. Working part time or less stressful job so that i can concentrate on my family. I dun need a very wealthy husband nor big house big car. As long as i have a loving family, i am more then happy n contented.
I just felt dam sad & emot i cant meet dear during the weekends hai...
Posted by snowpoem at 12:24 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
Finally 2 weeks ago i started to embark on a journey towards braces. During jan went for consultation, 2 doc that i went ask me to extract 4 teeth...2 top & 2 bottom and was comparing the costs also. But i was thinking is too much for me to remove 4 coz my bottom r quite straight. Until i met this dentise, which advice me only to remove 1 which is the upper part. And which i only doing the upper portion rather then the whole.Appointment all the way till April which is now. I went for my extract 1 week b4 the braces. At first i really tot remove of tooths can be super painful. But i was totally wrongly there was no feeling through out the process but can only feel the movement of them removing. Once is enough for me i wont wan to do it again. After which yet..bleeding but was not too bad, only try to eat with much much care. To make sure i wont eat n injure my wound, but i still can eat hard food. Just eat with one side. Felt weird with a large hole in yr mouth the first few days. Extraction is not the worse i realise. Now is the part is getting really very bad.
Was quite excited to put on my braces. On the first appointment, we went to glue the metal bracket on our every tooth. The worse n most painful part was actually to put n force in the seperator. With that stuck in between the back teeth. Totally cant eat any food except to swollo all the food. The second day onwards was bad...is not becoz of the pain that i suffer. Was due to that are so much food i cant eat, n i actually felt so hungry becoz i cant eat much which leads to it. Specially during work....i can spent my full 1 hr lunch break but i cant complete eating the whole meals. Which kind of quite depress =( somemore during the weekend morning i almost fainted lucky with dear ard to help me. Guess i must had been too hungry le...so is not so much abt the pain, is the eating part that i cant take hai...trouble things is have to brush almost every meal.
2 days later i am going to put on the wire n remove the sepeator..hoepfully it will get much better. Oh ya...the wax is kind of very helpful, actually place it on the metal n it actually dun cut so much n not that hurt anymore. I am going to put the wax for 24hrs if possible.
Posted by snowpoem at 11:30 PM
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Why am i emot again=( hai...someone told me b4 this sentence "Even if u can understand does not means that you can accept". Which is so true..recently been asking him to go here and there during weekend with me, but he was unable due to his homework. That is what i mean...i understand he got his work to do but i just cant accept he could not accompany me hai...even try to book him earlier also quite hard.Sometime i was thinking is there really no way he can plan his timetable in advance n just spare the few hrs for me ma?Recently dear been bring out the past hai....it really seem like all my fault. Am i?
Posted by snowpoem at 12:54 AM
Monday, January 11, 2010
Is year 2010!!!!My first blog of the year...first thing first i finally complete my degree le...i GRADUATE!!!! Wowowoowowoooooooo.........I cant express my happiness by words....is just wonderful after 2 long years of tired nitez classes...with reports,test,project n exam...hopefully i wont end my learning here...i wont know may be few years later i shall go for master or whatever=) Keep on learning is my attitude,but need to take a rest first. Anyway no $$$ also hahahha...to learn driving is my next aim. Ya..n save $$$ go overseas trip!!!!Seriously there is not much aim for me this year,coz i just completed my studies. Hmm...may be my career ba...going higher with much more responsible n stress at the same time. Nth is yet to be confirm at this moment,but hopefully with any changes i am able to handle.
Last year 2009 i guess was quite a bad year in term of my relationship. Seriously have to apologize to my dear...i hurt him quite badly. No details here...but i know is hard..what done cannot be undone, i seriously hope dear can trust me back totally again. Coz he always like to make fun of me like this time round which guy again. Although he said joking, but deep in his heart really worry ba...hai...5.5years tog near to 6 le...that was the worse incident happen. I always felt so thankful dear did not give up on me which i did. Innocent?stupid? whatever u name it. Do i still love him after a such a long time? The ans is YES!!!!!!! He always ask me y i like to do so many silly things...(dear u sld know=p ). His hand, his body, his smell...i just love to hold his hand, hug n smell his body odor whahahaha...sound weird n crazy. I felt so "sin fu" with him beside me...with him around i know i can depend n relies on him.
Whatever happen in the past i really hope it wont affect us in the future or become a stone in our path. I need a man that can take care of me n the family in the future which i already found n is just beside me. I should really treasure my dear...i once told him i dun believe in marriage in the past. I worry i scare i got no confident in marriage which i use to believe. Somehow or rather, he gave me the confident n belief that marriage can be work out n wonderful. Seriously a man at his age 23 now what r they doing n thinking? Playing around n rotting??? But my dear actually dun mind to settle down, however due to financial issue we r unable. Recently kind of have the feel that is time to settle down. He is the one that can give me my happiness. I wan to tell him..i believe i believe n i believe....hahaha...not trying to propose here...just that he is the right one for me.
He is my first BF...first time i hold a guy hand is with him, first time my hug is him, first time my kiss is him..first time of almost everything thing is with him. He is my first n my last...(provided dear dear want me as his lasts too). Many ppl date with so many guys/gals but still never got someone suitable n still searching. I must admit there were ppl asking me...xs u r still very young y stick to a guy for so long maybe sld try to date more ppl be u settle down. However, although his is my first BF so????The feeling is just right...he is the only one i want to spent with. Exclude my family, he can be consider my next closet kin. I am lucky enough that i dun need to search up n down for the right ones. The right one is playing game now hahaha.....just love him for no reason. Coz Love does not need any reason=)
Anyone who dun believe in marriage just like my classmates, becoz u have not met your right wants. I once never believe in marriage too...the idea was so strong. But as the time pass, i felt deeper n deeper with the guy that i first met, n we r almost tog for 6years. I cant even imagine..i didt even expect when we first started. At first i tot for most can last for 6 months hahhaha...but is 6years now n will be 60years more too...Becoz i already met the one is my life=)
Posted by snowpoem at 12:26 AM
Friday, December 04, 2009
Just dam PISS OFF today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Totally no mood to study sia.......angry emot sad....wat is happening to me.Suddenly felt so friendless recently =( i just cant find anyone to talk to=( So lifeless recently....i seriously miss my friends. I been missing out gathering...hai....
Y one sentence can make me so upset???Y one sentence can trigger me off??? Y i take it so seriously??? Dun complain only ma.....for most next time i just keep quiet lor....so it is consider a kind of COMPLAIN to him. Complain!!!!What i say sounded just like pure COMPLAIN!!!!!!!! Even if i fail a module i promise i wont COMPLAIN coz let it be i deserve it.
Hating my life at this moment....totally hate it. So what i am back home now...i didt even study shit.....Dam irritated...
Posted by snowpoem at 12:01 AM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Lesson learn today...Be HUMBLE...Be humble to learn no matter where you go.After class come back also cannot have peace at home sian....sometime i was thinking what will my marriage be in the future will be a happy one? Not the one i am viewing since when i am born. Two person comes together is by love. Mine will be a successful one...i believe at least,but yet worry hahaha.....