Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Yesterday actually get angry with dear regrading his social nitez.Coz dear told me his event start at 6.30pm,but i cant take leave and my work ends at 6plus.But yet dear told me nvm nvm which actually make me angry.Coz i was trying means and way to find solution of going down,but yet dear kept saying if i cant is ok...he say will be too rush for me.The way Dear put it across make me felt if without me going also nvm.Sometimes just the wrong way dear put his words across.

But i mean after some thoughts i might have mistaken dear kindness. May be he really dun want me to be too rush so rather me not to go.Hopefully dear thinks that way.Sometime i think i am getting over sensitive le ba..or think too much le...hai..since when i started to become like that.No sense of security.Should not i be more understanding and loving towards dear ma...what have i been doing and thinking.I hope whatever i do dear does not take it for granted.

Sometimes i know i cant blame dear,when he book out so tired le..still have to accompany me.All my friends told me i am too soft hearted le..am i?Until sometime they say y u treat him so well,but well just like him lor...haha...life have been a bit difficult ever since dear went into OCS.How?I felt a bit drifted away from dear recently.Sometimes just feel like 'disturb' dear coz i am bore,but dear finds it irritating.But it will be so boring...hai...i just want him to faster get over his NS. But after NS so what,he still have his NTU,by that time he will be busy also. Remember dear saying that. So 4ever will be busy le ma?

Shit...y am i complaining.

Posted by snowpoem at 11:08 PM