snowpoemgal

2010-06-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hmm..today was having a casual chat with my of my colleague. I felt so sad for her hai...here is her background. She is 27 now...with 6month old child. Met her husband when she was 16, 10yrs later which is 26 she got married. But from her way of talking...she actually said that if time will be able to turn back she will not marry her current husband, she kind of regretted. OMG!!!! How can it be???They only married for 1 yrs sld be in honeymoon period. How come less then a yr she actually felt that way?? It seem like her husband kind of look her down...hmm...coz he qn her how come after 7yrs of working she still remain at the same position. Whereas for her she is a very contented mother. As long with a job she is contented. N her husband is those very motivated.

I guess is different aim in life ba...how no matter what the husband sld love her for who she is ar...I just felt that the husband dun appreciate her which make her felt that way. And she once told me she rather come to work although very tired than stay at home during weekend to face her husband at home. Iszzz it very sad to hear this kind of things??? If i will her, how i hope i can stay at home during my off day to acc my BF =) I really appreciate my dear that no matter what i do he will always give me the support i need, which is very impt a relationship. He never qn me instead always believe n motivate me. Nv look down on me...

PS: But dear if next time u earn much more then me and i am just a little office gal with no motivation also cant look down on me k...=0

2010-04-24T01:23:00.005+08:00

While i was on my way to work everyday. I saw this very old ah ma and ah gong holding hand in hand walking very slowly & carefully together. The moment i saw..i was like OMG so sweet...felt touch too. I mean they are almost in their 70s but yet they can still be so lovely towards each other. Holding each other hand tightly. How i wish when i reach their age me too can hold my dear dear hand together. Retired from work...every morning just like them holding each other hand to go market and everywhere. Dear dear will u going to hold my hand just like them too???

The day i just put on the bracket without the wire...super ugly sia...n uncomfortable...

My teeth before anything was put on...

My tooth extraction with a empty hole!!!!

Blood!!!!After extraction

2010-04-24T00:24:00.003+08:00

I will be officially post to hougang branch from next sunday onwards. I didt know it will be that fast...kind of hate working on weekends. I am so use to rest on weekends le...every week i will be only looking forwards to weekends. Now nothing...

The saddest things was i am unable to stay over dear place during the weekend anymore. No more waking up late together during the weekend. No more bee hoon dear cook for me during weekend. No more shopping at cwp cold storage/NTUC and store food to eat during weekend. No more rotting together watching TV & play computer games during the weekend. OMG....I seriously miss it dam badly. Am i over emot???? I started crying once i know i cant do all these anymore =( I am just a weekend person...i just want to spent time with my dear during the weekend. But now i cant...the feeling was super sucks. I hate it....

I hate going to new environment, which have to know new ppl totally. I hate changes...but yet i have to keep telling myself i must get use to the place as fast as possible. Actually anything can change, coz i know no matter what i have a dear dear behind me supporting me all the way. Coz i know no matter how bad life is, how life changes....but only one thing dun change which is dear dear. He will always be there for me =)

Recently have quite a few tot, as i grow older...i realize i dun need to much $$$ or too high living standard. I just need to led a very simple & carefree life...my plan was to work harder for this few yrs. But once i get settle down with family & kids...i will want to be a gd wife & mother. Working part time or less stressful job so that i can concentrate on my family. I dun need a very wealthy husband nor big house big car. As long as i have a loving family, i am more then happy n contented.

I just felt dam sad & emot i cant meet dear during the weekends hai...

2010-04-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

Finally 2 weeks ago i started to embark on a journey towards braces. During jan went for consultation, 2 doc that i went ask me to extract 4 teeth...2 top & 2 bottom and was comparing the costs also. But i was thinking is too much for me to remove 4 coz my bottom r quite straight. Until i met this dentise, which advice me only to remove 1 which is the upper part. And which i only doing the upper portion rather then the whole.

Appointment all the way till April which is now. I went for my extract 1 week b4 the braces. At first i really tot remove of tooths can be super painful. But i was totally wrongly there was no feeling through out the process but can only feel the movement of them removing. Once is enough for me i wont wan to do it again. After which yet..bleeding but was not too bad, only try to eat with much much care. To make sure i wont eat n injure my wound, but i still can eat hard food. Just eat with one side. Felt weird with a large hole in yr mouth the first few days. Extraction is not the worse i realise. Now is the part is getting really very bad.

Was quite excited to put on my braces. On the first appointment, we went to glue the metal bracket on our every tooth. The worse n most painful part was actually to put n force in the seperator. With that stuck in between the back teeth. Totally cant eat any food except to swollo all the food. The second day onwards was bad...is not becoz of the pain that i suffer. Was due to that are so much food i cant eat, n i actually felt so hungry becoz i cant eat much which leads to it. Specially during work....i can spent my full 1 hr lunch break but i cant complete eating the whole meals. Which kind of quite depress =( somemore during the weekend morning i almost fainted lucky with dear ard to help me. Guess i must had been too hungry le...so is not so much abt the pain, is the eating part that i cant take hai...trouble things is have to brush almost every meal.

2 days later i am going to put on the wire n remove the sepeator..hoepfully it will get much better. Oh ya...the wax is kind of very helpful, actually place it on the metal n it actually dun cut so much n not that hurt anymore. I am going to put the wax for 24hrs if possible.

2010-02-23T00:54:00.002+08:00

Why am i emot again=( hai...someone told me b4 this sentence "Even if u can understand does not means that you can accept". Which is so true..recently been asking him to go here and there during weekend with me, but he was unable due to his homework. That is what i mean...i understand he got his work to do but i just cant accept he could not accompany me hai...even try to book him earlier also quite hard.

Sometime i was thinking is there really no way he can plan his timetable in advance n just spare the few hrs for me ma?Recently dear been bring out the past hai....it really seem like all my fault. Am i?

2010-01-11T00:26:00.003+08:00

Is year 2010!!!!My first blog of the year...first thing first i finally complete my degree le...i GRADUATE!!!! Wowowoowowoooooooo.........I cant express my happiness by words....is just wonderful after 2 long years of tired nitez classes...with reports,test,project n exam...hopefully i wont end my learning here...i wont know may be few years later i shall go for master or whatever=) Keep on learning is my attitude,but need to take a rest first. Anyway no $$$ also hahahha...to learn driving is my next aim. Ya..n save $$$ go overseas trip!!!!

Seriously there is not much aim for me this year,coz i just completed my studies. Hmm...may be my career ba...going higher with much more responsible n stress at the same time. Nth is yet to be confirm at this moment,but hopefully with any changes i am able to handle.

Last year 2009 i guess was quite a bad year in term of my relationship. Seriously have to apologize to my dear...i hurt him quite badly. No details here...but i know is hard..what done cannot be undone, i seriously hope dear can trust me back totally again. Coz he always like to make fun of me like this time round which guy again. Although he said joking, but deep in his heart really worry ba...hai...5.5years tog near to 6 le...that was the worse incident happen. I always felt so thankful dear did not give up on me which i did. Innocent?stupid? whatever u name it. Do i still love him after a such a long time? The ans is YES!!!!!!! He always ask me y i like to do so many silly things...(dear u sld know=p ). His hand, his body, his smell...i just love to hold his hand, hug n smell his body odor whahahaha...sound weird n crazy. I felt so "sin fu" with him beside me...with him around i know i can depend n relies on him.

Whatever happen in the past i really hope it wont affect us in the future or become a stone in our path. I need a man that can take care of me n the family in the future which i already found n is just beside me. I should really treasure my dear...i once told him i dun believe in marriage in the past. I worry i scare i got no confident in marriage which i use to believe. Somehow or rather, he gave me the confident n belief that marriage can be work out n wonderful. Seriously a man at his age 23 now what r they doing n thinking? Playing around n rotting??? But my dear actually dun mind to settle down, however due to financial issue we r unable. Recently kind of have the feel that is time to settle down. He is the one that can give me my happiness. I wan to tell him..i believe i believe n i believe....hahaha...not trying to propose here...just that he is the right one for me.

He is my first BF...first time i hold a guy hand is with him, first time my hug is him, first time my kiss is him..first time of almost everything thing is with him. He is my first n my last...(provided dear dear want me as his lasts too). Many ppl date with so many guys/gals but still never got someone suitable n still searching. I must admit there were ppl asking me...xs u r still very young y stick to a guy for so long maybe sld try to date more ppl be u settle down. However, although his is my first BF so????The feeling is just right...he is the only one i want to spent with. Exclude my family, he can be consider my next closet kin. I am lucky enough that i dun need to search up n down for the right ones. The right one is playing game now hahaha.....just love him for no reason. Coz Love does not need any reason=)

Anyone who dun believe in marriage just like my classmates, becoz u have not met your right wants. I once never believe in marriage too...the idea was so strong. But as the time pass, i felt deeper n deeper with the guy that i first met, n we r almost tog for 6years. I cant even imagine..i didt even expect when we first started. At first i tot for most can last for 6 months hahhaha...but is 6years now n will be 60years more too...Becoz i already met the one is my life=)

2009-12-04T00:01:00.003+08:00

Just dam PISS OFF today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Totally no mood to study sia.......angry emot sad....wat is happening to me.

Suddenly felt so friendless recently =( i just cant find anyone to talk to=( So lifeless recently....i seriously miss my friends. I been missing out gathering...hai....

Y one sentence can make me so upset???Y one sentence can trigger me off??? Y i take it so seriously??? Dun complain only ma.....for most next time i just keep quiet lor....so it is consider a kind of COMPLAIN to him. Complain!!!!What i say sounded just like pure COMPLAIN!!!!!!!! Even if i fail a module i promise i wont COMPLAIN coz let it be i deserve it.

Hating my life at this moment....totally hate it. So what i am back home now...i didt even study shit.....Dam irritated...

2009-11-12T00:22:00.002+08:00

Lesson learn today...Be HUMBLE...Be humble to learn no matter where you go.

After class come back also cannot have peace at home sian....sometime i was thinking what will my marriage be in the future will be a happy one? Not the one i am viewing since when i am born. Two person comes together is by love. Mine will be a successful one...i believe at least,but yet worry hahaha.....

2009-11-11T01:24:00.002+08:00

Dear dear has been so busy lastly, stay in school and study till 10plus. He will be so busy during exam period until end of nov. After that will be my turn le ba...cant disturb him during this period, he needs lot s of concentration. So i shall be more understanding and supportive =)

2009-11-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱你的人
没有一百分的另一半只有五十分的两个人　
冷漠有时候并不是无情只是一种避免被伤害的工具

Kind of like this 3 sentence, find it quite meaningful. When sometime we quarrel, is because we love each other that is why we bother to quarrel. If we dun bother y we quarrel???

There is no 100% perfect partner, because there is only 2person 50 marks each which adds up to 100. No one is perfect, is only when 2 ppl coming together.

We use to always have cold war, but is a way not to hurt each other deeper.

2009-11-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

Cant stand my lecture today...power until i boil and piss during class. He just skip away the power slide when he dun know. And what is the point of having a lecture when he just read from the slide without going into details explaining. Piss off with him lor...what PHD. Permanent head damage...more like it. Just come here earn the $$$ without student at heart.

2009-11-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

I am glad i have dear around with me all this while. Although we have cold war, quarrel, unhappiness but still loving tog. Although i use to complain dear this and that, but i realise i am actually very fortunate with dear beside me. I promise i will be the 20%, but i didt...i end up to be the 80% that chose to leave dear. Is dear that hold on to me...i realise i am a silly fool which actually chose to give up on dear before. Seriously i never regret anything in my whole life, but only guilty and regret on that matter. I really should treasure this relationship after so many things happen.

Sometime friends ask me, what u do during yr weekend with bf. Usually will just stay at his place, and friends will ask not boring ma? Although at times really hope we can go somwhere, but like what dear is not he dun wan but cant. I am slowly getting use to it...and fine with it le...sometime is like not the place or vence, rather who is the one that spent the time with u. It does not matter where or what, is the right person.

2009-11-02T00:38:00.002+08:00

Sometime i really think everyone needs a partner for support. Of coz my mental support will be dear dear....whenever i am down dear is the one that i always look for. Today paper was shit...i fail once n i think i going to fail again so shit....i was just very angry with myself, is my second time taking how come i am still so unsure n not confident abt it? I did study but what is wrong with me? Just felt so down after this paper hai......feel like crying coz disappointed with myself. How come i just cant scold n pass....is the second time.

2009-10-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

Take off today coz prepare for exam. Anyway i was kind of panic today when i cant reach dear. Msg and call with no reply, i start to get panic hai...now i understand how parent actually panic and worry about their children when they dunno where they are.

I was kind of too emot yesterday...i kept crying ytd...hai...hate menses...moody, cramp, emot...most poor thing is dear always have to kana from me. Sorry dear...i dun wish too but sometimes really cant be help. I will just think a lot...super emot extremely sensitive with words and action during this period. Thanks dear dear for the understanding...i apologise for ytd...i cant promise it wont happen again, but i really hope i can control my emotion in the future. I always told myself i cant get emot, but somehow it always fail. I was wondering by eating anything can actually help during this period??? If not every month my poor dear dear have to suffer with me =(

Anyway if anyone wish to go for any palm read or anything to read about yr life...must be prepare it will affect u one way or another. I say this becoz it does affect me in someway. Ever since they say dear dear will have second person in his life, i really kind of felt worry and insecure really insecure. What if it really happen?

2009-10-26T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hate having menses just not me and extremely emot arrggggggggggg...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-21T01:01:00.002+08:00

Hai...kind of very boring during the weekday recently=( there is no one i can talk to. Hardly meet dear at all during the weekdays, not even on the phone n msg=( kind of felt so alone during the weekdays. Almost no call, no msg not to even say meeting out. The feeling is back again felt neglected.

2009-09-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

I just want to have peace in the family =( why cant i have a proper rest even after work and sch? I am tired and so drain out after the whole day. So what if i come back to this home? If u dun like yr job u can always quit and fine a new one. If u fail for yr study u can always retake. If u dislike something, you can throw away. But family is no matter how bad or worse it is, is still there, you cant throw u cant quit.

Sometime the public always blame the children for not taking care of their old parents, and keep scolding the children and blame them. But have the public ever wonder what is the root of the cause? May be is the parent fault? They never ever play a part in their role since the children is young. Some dun even raise their own children in the first place, so how do you expect the children to take care of them when they r old.

2009-09-24T01:11:00.002+08:00

Is wednesday today...hai...something happen during work today that cause my first half of the day quite moody =( is only after lunch i felt better...may be food can really make me more happy hahha...realise working in bank can be so stressful at times hai...i know every job got their own stressful part, i dun know may be not as stress as bank. In bank no one is allow to make mistake...coz is cash $$$$$. Not a single mistake at all....mistake in bank cannot be forgiven. Even a simple delay of doc.can make the whole branch go up side down...which happen to me =(

Mentally so tired and stress........

Anyway my poor dear have fall sick again. Hai...ever since enter uni he seems to fall sick more often..y huh?Too stress? Not enough rest? But army worse ma...Must get him more vitamin to eat...hopes he recover very very soon....fever and down with cough again.

He is busying rushing his report now at near 1.30am liao....while still falling sick hai...how i wish i can help also. Jia you jia you!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-22T00:58:00.003+08:00

两种老公两种人生‏

A:她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了。我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。
他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”

女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……” 没等她说完。

他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。” 其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。” 九点半，
她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。” 十一点。十二点。一点。两点…… 后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！” 快到九点的时候。
他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”

信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句。她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------　
A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子。
然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候。
她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴。就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”
她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地狱！” 她哭了。

一个人。是因为你对他好。所以觉得你好。一个人。是因为懂得你的好。所以想要对你好。幸福的恋人。首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己。------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

2009-09-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

Next week onwards will be busy for months again. Will have classes on 3 nitez hai...will be dam tired but still must copy with it no matter what(i try). Then i wont have much time to meet out with all my friends le...=( I pray hard to pass all my module by this dec...must work super hard!!!!

Anyway was discussing with my boss yesterday. I told her i will be graduating in coming dec soon, may be after that i hope promote and to consider become personal financial consultant(PFC = Banker). Mostly do sales...got target to hit, sell investment, insurance and all the stuff. I am not sure i can make it a not, i still considering. Advantages being of coz pay will increase salary much much higher,min 2.5k.Also i am so use to the environment le...is harder if i go to other place, whereas here i can pick up the stuff very fast. If better can even get commission but is hard la...I just worry whether can i make it a not? I see my colleagues doing i also feel stress for them hai....how? But my boss and colleagues all r very supportive of me. Coz dec will be very fast, i must start to plan and look out for what i wan to do after i get my degree. Hai....shall see again.

Hmm...not too sure was dear angry with me today again.Sound a bit not right. Coz i guess i kept complaining to him no $, but yet i can out with my colleagues and sing. I do min my spending le...but yet already promise to go tonigh le...cant always put them areoplane ba...He also cant confirm whether he can meet me tml =( somehow i got this feeling that when i am out with my colleagues he will kind of unhappy...but when i am out with my girlfriends most of the time seems to be fine....hmm.... am i over sensitive?May be i am ba....

2009-08-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

What i know is only crying.....UESLESS me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No more luck tml for my exam....still tot after exam can go for a little celebration with dear. Just so extremely upset....y must go msn him?Y must go settle wat issue....y must i blog out? Y i cant i keep everthing to myself? Where can i go tml? I need someone badly =(

2009-08-21T01:56:00.002+08:00

Am i always the one that said the wrong stuff?Y am i always the one that angry? Am i in a wrong? Or am i too sensitive? But at times the stuff he said just really upset me. Hai...i dun know la...not feeling well also. Whole day just so low....y must i always make each other angry. Is it always me? Am i unreasonable to be angry? What happen to me?

Just last few day heard a story from radio, which i very agree with the story. Is a very simple story but yet meaningful. One day the wife went to withdraw $ from the bank, half way was being rob...but yet when the husband knows, first thing first was to actually said n scold his wife for being so stupid and clumsy...nv be careful n y kana being rob. Is a extreme story...but the story behind is...in the first place the wife already being so upset le...who want to be rob...instead of the husband being concern and take notice of the wife feeling already extreme upset. But the husband still scold the wife. I dun know how to express myself in worlds, and the real meaning behind the story.

But what i wan to say is sometimes i do get this kind of feeling from dear =( Sometime is the words he use...i know he didt do it on purpose or even does not know about n realise it. Or just i being too sensitive. Example sometimes i didt walk properly n almost get trip down, dear will say things like 'ah yo...y nv walk properly n c the walk way'. Is the same example above...this is one of the example i can think of. Just kind of get this feeling quite often. It seems like i crying more often nowadays.

He use to change and become quite thoughful the past few months...but things kind of get back the same now again. Am i a person that need a lot of attention and care? I think i am....with a lot of care....

Can someone teach me not to be so sensitive ma? Dear u still rem what u promise me b4 just few months ago ma?

2009-08-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

Super busy with exam and stress!!!!!!!!!! I dun wan to fail again........no confidence in my papers.

2009-07-21T01:24:00.002+08:00

Just let me complain......i am TIRED TIRED TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

As usual life still as busy...one wave down another wave coming. Just finish mid term and now rushing for assignment to be hand it within this 2 weeks. N after that mid aug final exam again, everything is so pack n rush. Tiring....but something really motivate me a bit. I got a high distinction (80 marks n above) for my commercial banking mid term, second in class heheheh....(i not showing off), but is my first time after study for so long to have a not too bad grade, of coz extremely happy. But what i worry most is another module hai....that one can make it more impt.

Simple Life for me nowadays, study...work...and meet my bf. I hope i can complete my studies very soon...change a new job, got more free time, do my own things and meet up with friends.

Dear going to start school in mid augest also le...hope he can get use to the life there. Study hard hard which is not going to be easy. Pray that everything will be smooth for him, dun need to worry too much abt $ issue. 4 years i shall wait=) We been through for 3 yrs poly, 2 yrs army, so what is another 4 yrs to us. We just jia you jia you and support each other....but of most the time is i keep compaining hahahha...

Time to slp and work again nitez....

2009-07-12T23:40:00.003+08:00

Weekend had just come to an end again hai...didt do much things also, wanted to do on my assignment. But seriously i got no idea how to start doing it. Tml go back still have to settle a customer things, so hate pending case. So wat if u have half a million???Got $$$ dun need to wait liao la...$500k very big meh???Angry...kind of getting more and more sick of my job.How how how???

Every weekend always so reluctant to go back after meeting dear. Only weekend i am able to get a good rest, without worry about anything. Miss my dear...

2009-07-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

Got this interesting story to share during work.

Just a question to ask b4 i start my story. What is the reason will anyone call contact centre? Normal ppl like us of coz check on sth or to cancel certain things right? To settle some stuff. For me anyone calling from contact centre forward a call to us in branch, most of the case is complain cases, i can say 10/10. I find it funny and stupid was, this private customer (by e way 2 become a private customer your account must be 1 million n above) call into the contact centre to look for ME????Of coz they forward the call, i tried to ask them what was it regarding? Coz i scare ma...customer call in sure complain about me the ma...(normal thinking). When she said the name totally cant rem who at all. No choice LL have to pick up the call and be prepare to kana scold. Funny thing was..."hi...r u xueshi? I got yr business card. Did ask XXX(one of the colleague name) to ask both of us out for lunch appointment. STUN on the phone....DOT DOT DOT!!!Huh...what de....call in just to set lunch appointment with us. Best my XXX bluff that going overseas. So stupid me have to bluff along the way OMG!!! Reason being to expand his network. BULLSHIT lor.....u private so rich liao...network with ppl like us meh???He social live sld be UP UP there de lei...what he gain from knowing us wor??Ppl network for business...he network us for???

Conclusion being....i only heard ppl calling contact centre to enquiry their things....never before call in to set lunch appointment HAHAHAHHA........Stupid la....

2009-07-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

Dear person in charge,

Review on mid term exam BUS337 Credit and Lending Decisions

I am currently pursing my part-time degree in Banking and Finance under Murdoch University (SMA - Singapore). Recently on the 3th July 2009 we had our mid-term exam for BUS337 Credit and Lending Decisions. We were given one and a half hour to complete the whole paper. The paper consists of the following:

Question 1: one calculation (27 value to calculate) and 2 essay.
Question 2: 3 essay
Question 3: 3 essay
Question 4: 4 essay

Total 12 essay questions and 1 question on calculation which consist of 27 value to calculate.

With such an comprehensive paper given, we were only given one and a half hour to complete. With such standard at least 3 hours need to be given for the paper. We did many papers before, this is the first time we were extremely disappointed. With all the hard work that we put in, we were not given sufficient time to complete it. Most of us struggler to complete or even not. Is there no examiner to review the paper before it was set as mid-term paper? No one realize is either too much questions being set or insufficient time given? Is there not a proper system set up for such task?

I strongly believe Murdoch University is a world class international institution, well known across australia and singapore. I hope Murdoch will treat this matter seriously to review the paper once again as we treat our studies as equally important. We sincerely hope Murdoch can provide us with a satisfactory answer. Thanks for attending to the situation.

Yours Sincerely,
Chen Xueshi

An e-mail i wrote to the stupid uni, still piss and angry lor....so many questions how we can complete it on time. Hardly anyone voice out the matter lor....cannot, we have our rights and e-mail them. SHOOT THEM!!!!!!! Better get me a good answer.

2009-07-01T02:13:00.002+08:00

Kind of very busy this 2 week after back from bintan. Prepare for my mid-term exam. Study until so tried, have to take leave (waste) to study. Tiring to study and work at the same time. But i am glad that i got a good bunch of great colleagues and boss that really understand us. Don't mind us to leave early for class. I kept complaining that i have to go sch, but that day met up with christina her words actually kind of enlighten me hahahha..."going for class means one more day nearer to complete our course". Hmm...some how very true hahaha...i kind of get getting very negative since i fail one module. Always have the thinking "study so hard also fail hai...".

Seriously i dun mind studying at least i got a aim in life....but somehow just felt tired at times. Is 2.30am rite now...take leave for the next 3 days to study at home. Coz totally no tips given for this module. No idea wat will come out!!!!!

Anyway ytd 30 june 2009 was like our 5yrs 1 mon anniversary......sometimes i cant believe that time pass so fast n we r still tog hahahhaa....a lot of things happen through this 5 yrs. Everything always happen for a reason. There is no right or wrong, who to blame or what. Things happen for a reaason. Whatever it is i am glad that we r still happily tog. Although sometimes can be mad at each other hahhaa...especially when quarrel...with 2 stubbore head tog. I still sld thanks dear for not giving me up. We cry, we hug, we quarrel, we get upset, but after all wat most impt is we still appreciate each other=)

Wow...kk...time to slp and continue STUDY tml!!!!!!!!! JIA YOU miss chen.............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-26T00:39:00.001+08:00

Short and sweet...went bintan last week. Come back have to start prepare for mid term exam again...hai...very stress!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

Just some sudden thought of the day. Life is so unpredictable....many things happen for a reason. We cant predicate what will happen in future. Life is a gamble...

2009-06-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

Went for palm reading...out of fun that is why went for it. Was quite shock when the first sentence that she said. I was a stubborn person, and especially wont listen to others. Very true...that is y quite bad....i always wont listen to others. And end up indirectly making ppl upset or angry. I need to learn to listen. She also say i am quite a career women hahaha...but too bad money will tends to flow out very fast. Whatever i earn, what goes in will come out hai...sad...What most funny was...i cant marry early, if not the reason i divorce is becoz i earn more then my husband hahahah.....so either is to help husband take care of the business if not look after the kids.

Anyway today is a monday...start of the month of first week. Branch was super crazy like hell la...non stop customers. Lack of staff some more hai...anyway next year our branch confirm will be moving to the new building at orchard MRT station. Guess by then will be even more busy...but by the time i will be leaving the company le ba...but if really one fine day i am going to leave OCBC...i will definitely going to miss it a lot. A place that i have so much fun working, with great colleagues and friends from different branches. Lots of great memory...althought i always complain and complain...but i love this place.

2009-05-21T23:12:00.004+08:00

Hai...body not feeling quite well this few days. I took half day MC n when back to work this afternoon. Coz no one helps to cover me if i not around. End up i didt went to see doc in the morning, at nitez after work wan to go but too late le...coz got meeting. When can i start to feel better =(

2009-05-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

Realise i was totally shag out after dinner. Dam tired....came back knock out till 11plus then woke up. Anyway i realise my past entry all seem so emot n upset. Kk....promise next time shall blog some happy happy things...rather than me always like nagging hahhaha....

2009-05-20T01:54:00.001+08:00

Hai...something sure happen after any outing....Y????? Cant i go out happily without any worry and restriction.......

2009-05-19T00:40:00.003+08:00

I waiting for my dear margaret to come back this friday. She been off n leave for more than a month le....and i been covering her during this period. I a bit proud of myself (thick skin hehehhe...) for working this whole month without resting. Even though there were a lot of time i felt like taking MC. But i keep telling myself i cant be so irresponsible for work. So once margaret come back i will be more relax and is my turn to go relax and clear my leave le.......YEAH!!!!! I waiting for my this coming weekend.....i need my rest!!!!

2009-05-18T00:00:00.003+08:00

Came home and saw my dad shoes outside, suddenly felt that my shoulder felt so much lighter at the moment. Why must we wait till someone not ard b4 we know n learn to appreciate? I know is mushy...but i kind of miss my dad a lot this few days when he not ard. I felt like telling him how much i need him to be ard and I too love him. But we chinese r just shy to tell our parents all these. Something just seem missing n lack of sth when he was not ard. I nv appreciate his cooking when he cooks everyday for us during dinner. Last few days, we had to settle our dinner ourselves. I promise i will go home eat as often as i can in future.

I felt much relax n less stressful now. As what my dad always taught as since young...be contented in life n nv ask for too much. We face problems along the way but we still must face it. Face it in a positive way....i guess my dad already master it But i still have a lot of things to learn from him in life. My dad nv believe in beating us, he always make us understand, what is right what is wrong. Even when we r growth up, he still worry n take gd care of the whole family. Even though my mum was totally beyond hope. Although he is not financial rich which he always told us. But what matters is our heart.

I cant imagine if one day for what reason he not beside us. I dun know....my dad is my mental support,other ppl can go missing, but not my single family member. I came to realise how impt is my dad only just now. For any reason i dun show my love towards him....but deep down i respect him the most in this world. He work hard for everything, suffer a lot in his while life. I not sure and cant promise...but for now i dun wan him to worry about me and in the future for him to be proud of me and have a better life. I hope i can give.

2009-05-14T23:55:00.003+08:00

This whole week so many things happen. I am so tired. Firstly i guess i really fail the module quite badly hai....no choice....have to accept it. Retake n pay another 2k. Secondly family issue, the issue that always cause me so mentally tired. For the past 1 week that is no one single day i can slp well. Indirectly affect my work n mood, everyday wake up feel like taking mc hai....my mum is the root of the whole problem. U can say i am a bad daughter, but all of us rather she not ard the house. Without her the whole world seems so peaceful, no one can fully understand wat my family go through. Is mentally torture...sometimes i just wish that after work or sch i can come back rest, but worse.

Thirdly, money....economic is bad temporary my dad is jobless. Mum not working, sis schooling hai...bills still need to be pay. I dun earn a lot too....suddenly realise life is so hard. Sometimes i am just thinking...what will be an ordinary age 23 gal doing with their life? I guess most r still taking parents $, studying, not too much worry ba...for me not only have to support myself, pay everything my own like sch fees, own bills. When my sis in ploy i hope i can support her also, i rather i work harder n suffer, n let her be more relax. Still got HDB loan which i worry the most hai...my dad dun pay regularly...how can i earn more $ to cover all these expenses? In the future i need to support my whole family also hai....

As for work...hai...i just feel like quitting le..but i cant i need the income. I just dun understand how can some ppl just be so irresponsible for their work. Even if u wan or feel like quitting, at least still be responsible for what u do ar....best is Jun...even b4 quitting she still so hardworking, do everything nice nice b4 she left. That sld be the attitude lor...n ya MC...our branch already not enough ppl le...but yet ppl can just take mc just like that. Who suffer? The staff that is working that day. If u r really sick i got nth to say, but some just take mc coz they dun wan come work. I mean depends ma...angry when they treat their job so anyhow, not serious.

Hai....conclusion i am really tired this whole week.

2009-05-11T01:24:00.002+08:00

Today is mother's day...went to have a simple dinner. Suddenly got this feeling that i am not really a good daughter hai...i should spend more time at home with them. They hardly see me around hai...felt so bad for my dad. Still worry about result...dun think they will reply me so fast. Anyway school start le...lesson on every monday n friday...dun understand y my lesson always fall on a friday. I going genting in 2weeks time!!!!Excited lei...hahaha...ok la...i nv been b4 ma..somemore so long nv went overseas le...although just malaysia...just wan to get out from singapore for a while. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!

2009-05-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

OMG....I cant believe i fail one module. A bit impossible lei...hai...hopefully they calculate wrongly. Going to send e-mail and check and ask for appeal sian....I got 39/100 which i got confident i wont fail that badly ba...i dun wan to retake coz need to pay $2000 lor...which is super a lot la...n waste of time also. i really hope they calculate wrongly. Totally no mood today...so disappointed hai...lets pray hard is they make mistake.....But if really fail then dun know what to say liao...hope they get back to me asap. Dun like pending result...

2009-04-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

I make dear upset and emot again =( so dui bu qi........

2009-04-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

Finally i came back home straight home after work today. As usual came home to nap=) piggy like me always need tons of slp. Anyway feel like changing my blog skin....shall see ba when i got e time again.

Oh ya...been busy working recently, didt really take note of the lastest news. Hai....last time is SARS now is Swine Flu...so scary...didt know is so serious 152 ppl die...and is still spreading worldwide. What is happening to the world? Shall pray hard it wont spread till singapore.

Hahaha...i dream of my manager ytd lor...asking me y i nv do this n that...must be too stress le...i wan go holiday!!!!Can be anywhere...i just wan to get out of singapore just for a short while to rest. Coz nth much to do in sing also=(

Work work work and work everyday.....is there other option? I need motivation....

2009-04-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

I went to watch "Handsome suit" today. Was quite a funny but yet meaningful show. The story line tells that a ugly guy wish to be handsome.He got a special suit that once he wear it, he will become extremely handsome. Initially, he find that being handsome that are a lot of advantages, all the gals start to scream n faint when they see him. However, in the end he realise being handsome cant give him the happiness he wan, rather ugly. Is quite touching...

Thus, i always believe looks is not everything. Yes...may be the first impression. But is the later part that how u get to know the person better. After watching the show got some feeling to share. Yup...looks is not the most impt n not very thing, is the heart. How u treat ppl with yr true heart. Everyone go for gd looking stuff...including yr the other half. But does really being gd looking matters? Have we ever ask ourselves wat is more impt? Looks or character? Guys tends to go for pretty gd..erm...until now i still think so hahaha...(i know if some guy friends that r reading now, u ppl sure *shake head...n say where got). But is really true u guys go for pretty gal ar...i mean not really super pretty but still not too bad i mean hahah...will u all go for fat gal meh? Dun think so ba...pretty/handsome i cant say no use hahahha....but most impt is the heart *sin....be kind hearted to everything ard u. Once treat ppl kindly, u sure will get back the same reason. At least i believe it. Be appreciate the things ard u, is really hard (i am trying). Be grateful to the things ard u, be it anything.

2009-04-23T00:51:00.003+08:00

Another great song by David Cook - Always be my baby

2009-04-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!My exam finish le.....finally my exam has ended.....but time to get back to work tml =( My leave either clear for exam if not nth else le....sad....ppl clear for holiday me study.....anyway can slp peacefully le......everything clear....sure can pass but hopefully pass with a better mark ba...11 may going to start sch again. Can only rest for a short 2 weeks.

2009-04-20T17:26:00.003+08:00

2009-04-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

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没有什么不同

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只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯的多

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

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却又再一次受伤

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受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

2009-04-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

Very busy...tired...and stress again =( exam coming....hai.....

2009-04-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

Finally this few day the HR wake up their idea n send more ppl to our branch. 1 bank officer, 1 SGC and 1 SA. By the way for any one that dun know my position, my role is an service ambassador(SA). So initially my branch only got me n margart, not there is another SA perm here. I was like dam happy la...coz at least now got someone else to lighten my work load. As margaret was like off for the past 3 weeks, and next week she will go on leave n may 3 weeks. Because of it, last few days (somemore end of the month), i was so busy n stress with only 1 SA ard which was me.But at least with the new SA back...i more relax. Anyway today boss said sth very funny also "xueshi chief SA" haha...shock...ah ya...coz she wan me to ask the new SA to change her leave that is y so gd say that la...hahaha...but seriously i am extremely glad that she is perm here. She is only 21 lor...i seem so old=( sad. But i think she came to hell hahah...sad for her. Coz my branch very busy n lots of weird n nasty customer,anyway conclusion....i felt less stress now heheheh...=)

Going to cut my hair this saturday...hmm...thinking shorter n may be dye? Anyway i make appointment le....hehehe....looking forward. Anyway got our 2 months bonus happy happy!!!!

2009-04-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

Dun know why i felt so stress recently again. Almost everything...work with all the customer,pending case, stupid customer. Everything also must be fast fast...i am human not superman. Only can do a thing by a time hai...my temper is getting worse n worse. Stupid cust always insist on things then cant be done...or if not telling me by today must do it or by when when when. Pls...i hate cust always come into the branch last min to get their things done. Like by when when when i leaving overseas, need it urgently. If u need it urgently then should have prepare yourself ma...hai...even since enter into the job i really slim down a lot. Use to be a bit chubby chubby, now is different case lor...i think my stress level is quite low. I cant really take stress, my stress level is quite low. A bit of things can already stress me hai...somemore margart not ard recently, i am the only one. Dam busy with only me...miss chen is not everything...i cant handle so many cust at a time. Getting more n more tired nowadays. Not work means exam...all my leave n off is taken for my exam. Nowadays hardly even have my own time hai...after long n stressful day at work, came back home had to rush assignment, at times with some family issue. I seem so useless n weak....everyone faces all these problem...but y am i keep complaining?Getting irritated of myself at times too.

That day also...when i told dear i will be meeting up n do a group assignment with my classmates, he ask with who, and i ans 3guys n me in a group. The immediate reply was "Why u always like to hang out with guys n purposely know them,y cant u know more gals?". Initially was really quite angry n upset,my heart ache=( I dun know what n how to explain,so i just kept quiet as usual. There is no reason y i know them, it just happen that they seat beside me during class. N usually i am a loner that sit by myself. I didt purposely go n know them. But i mean during class, there bound to have qn asking each other de ar....i nv like go ask them hey can i know u? Of coz i nv...i already keep a distance by keeping quiet in class le...second incident, which happen today. Coz after group meeting, while going home realise one of my classmate stay at amk too. So thinking since so tired n hungry, just hope to reach home faster, so decide to share cab home so can reach home faster instead of taking train. My dear ask y i took cab n with a guy again. Ask me to be careful keep a distance, worry that history might happen again. I know...i cant blame him. Is all my fault....

Sometime i hope dear can trust me back....but i know is not possible at all anymore. Is all my fault in the first place. Even nowadays i go out with a group of friends, he will hope that i can reach home early. I know his concern. I actually felt so xin ku at times, i cant blame him coz i created all these in the first place, but yet i am unhappy abt those incident. I dun know how to explain the feeling. Is like i wan to blame him but i know i cant. N i will keep putting the blame on myself. Until may be all the things i did b4 i am totally in the wrong. I felt so sandwich.

Hai...suddently so moody....how???? A lot of things i do nowadays dear is always in my consideration. Now i finally understand once a trust is broken, hardly or nv will the trust be back anymore.

2009-03-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

Marriage. How you define that? How confident are you to step into it. Who can really understand my concern? I know dear has always been extremely disappointed when he always try to bring up this topic. And i always felt totally lost, i kept slient becoz i really lost, it piss and disappointed him a lot. I am the problem...is not that i dun have faith in him. How to believe in marriage when ever since young and even when i already grown up, my family still in a mess. How to convince myself? Dear told me i cant compare just like that. But how not too? I scare i worry. Everyone fear sth in life, and 'marriage' is just my weak point. I really fear of this word now. Who can understamd how i feel?

What really hurt me was he said "he wont be sure when the next gal come he might just go ahead. Becoz wat is the point if i dun trust in marriage". That will be end of it if i dun trust ba....is not i nv try to convince myself to believe, i tot of it, i dream of it... I did i really did.....is not that i dun wan to discuss. I fear really fear......cant life be simple and happy? Am i too innocent...too childish to think that way le ba...

2009-03-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

Recently so busy with my assignment hai...and exam coming soon on the 21 and 22 april again. Stress...totally got no time to blog. I promise i will back once i done with all my sch work. I miss going out and have fun. Been locking myself at home this whole week to do my assignment(30%). HELP!!!! Why i study ppl also study...but y i seem so stress hahaha...everynight slping at average 2.30am just to rush my 3000 words report. So tired =(

2009-03-16T21:23:00.005+08:00

Hahaha..the cake so cute...never seem b4. Majong cake...eat le HUAT ar!!!!

Dear sin sin bday....

As usual i order drink without alcohol...of coz not sour too...hahaha...by the way i not like MH..i can take but he cant oopes...(sorry mr Mh)

Her little gift from us...

Friends 4ever...friendship for near 10 years OMG...time files...

OCBC cycle....

My dear S.H.E!!! High....

2009-02-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

I quite lazy to update recently. But today i sincerely have to apologise to Mr meng hao, eugene n miss margaret. Extremely sorry to make them worry. I promise i own them a meal. They miss call me like 15times. Ppl i am so so sorry to be late.....I felt so bad. Actually i got put alarm clock, but sld put it beside me. Thanks for dear waited me for like 3 hours. Anyway after the cycle i was dam shag la....reach home slp till like 7plus then woke up. Coz the day b4 his friends was playing majong in his room. But i just slept (in a half awake mood, coz noisy ba...), by the time they ended was like near 3plus am. Only after they left then i was fully aslp, by the time i woke up was super late le 8.20am where by i sld had meet them at ard 8....actually so piss with myself when i on the cab. Blaming myself why the hell will i over slept. Epecially eugene keep asking me whether i can wake up a not and i told him sure sure sure no problem. But when i pick up the phone he sounded angry hai...mar also, suppose to meet her first but she cant contact me. Make her so worry...i felt so bad. Anyway the cycle was fun...long time didt exercise le...not my leg pain sia....

Sorry sorry sorry sorry!!!!

2009-02-09T21:29:00.006+08:00

This little palm size cake cost us about $11 lor...although is expensive. But i just want to give it a try hehehe....
By the way is at Jurong Point B1, anyway initially the cake was totally plain. So the special thing about it was we can decor ourselves.

Seem a bit ugly hahaha...too bad we r not arts student =) But i like n taste nice too!!!

Oh...sat went to meet my poly friends too, n happen to discover a new n extremly nice place in singapore. Is call the keepel bay, which is very near Vivo city. Is a island by itself, n they actually open up the island. Cool place to go to.

That is the bridge link to the island. Is more convenience to drive in, if not is about 10 - 15min walk in.

That is the club house if i am not wrong.

Anyway any suggestion/recommendation for nice dinner buffet? No more then $50/person.

2009-02-03T01:58:00.002+08:00

Wow...nan de today after work came home i manage to take out my text book n notes to read through. Hmm...i realise i got a sense of satisfactory if i manage to solve a problem hahaha....since the start of the degree i only manage to get like a Credit (60-69), this time round i must work hard n aim for a Distinction(70-79), at least let me get a D b4 i graduate hehehe...hopefully i can. Now i am trying to make an effort to revise my work every week b4 the lesson start. At least while in the class know what is being teach, n most impt is coz i dun wan to waste my money on the text book hahahaha...coz i spent like total $130 on text book lor....so i make sure to make full use of the book. And mid term exam like coming in 3 weeks time, omg it seems like i just started the sem. And i am still totally lost.

Anyway i was just telling dear....may be if can after degree i hope to rest for a year n may be continue master. But as usual no $...hai....a degree already cost me like 21k...another master may be 10k more....although finance is hard to study but i have to admit is quite interesting. U know interest rate is not that simple, there is different kind of market. Money market (for short term huge $ invest), or capital market (long term). U know basic future, forward contract, options. Is interesting to know...although until now i still not too sure. Coz is all theory, if can i hope my future job may be can be a traded...FX (foreign currency exchange). U can learn how banks n financial institute earns $, how normal ppl like us can earn profit.

Wow...2.30am le....better go slp le...if not tml sure cant wake up again.....

2009-02-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

Wow...i eating my happy food now...mac delivery (not happy meal). During work i will always ask my colleague, what happy food we eating later hahaha...realise eating can make me happy too...hehehe...even more happy if someone make their own happy food. If u can cook y not cook yr happy meal n share with others. Erm...may be my happy meal might not taste good hahaha...but dun like that la...at least i tried hehehe...will keep improve de...

Taking abt cooking....u c ar...b4 marry when yr e other half cook for u, u will felt so so appreciated, felt so love, no matter how bad the food taste still will say very good...hahaha...but after marry...things change. Start to complain ah yo....y taste like tat, too sweet, too oily too wat this n tat. Is the true wor....they dun feel appreciate n cooking is like the wife daily routine. I dun wan i dun wan....i dun wan that to happen to me. I just wish my furture husband can really dote on me, appreciate the things i do. I dun wan to have a normal family hahaha...i mean to have a special n loving family. Money can buy a house but cant buy a family. Is the people that live inside makes it meaningful. I dun need any big house or big car. Just a simple loving family with my belove husband n kids. Walk hand in hand, during the weekend whole family can go have a sweet outing. Really just a simple life i need. Choo lee always say a person can never get too contended, once they are they lost the fighting spirit. No matter how i wish to get my simple idea across to him, but hahaha...i still cant out talk him. He just say i am too innocent. Am i?

Hahaha...am i asking a lot?

2009-01-23T01:08:00.003+08:00

I have not been updating very often recently. Can say coz i am lazy may be. Hai....dear r quite emotional nowadays (all becoz of me), sometimes i really dun know how to console him. I felt bad n guilty. Is me that started all the problems, until now when i think things should had been resolve but once a while the problem does came back. Is like due to the incident, even if i wan to go out or stay out late, i will have to reconsider again. Sometimes going out too often or too late, dear will tends to get emot again which sometimes i felt i am sandwich in between. N he always dont like me to slp late, where by my average slping hour is like 2am. But my explanation was i work late n end late. By the time i reach home i hardly had time, n i can woke up late like abt 9.30am. So to me slping at 2am everyday is a norm for me le...i know his concern, but...sorry. I really hope everything will be back to normal, which to me it has been but not for dear yet. I am to blame, but i seriously hope to see back the cheerful dear back. It has been MIA since he enter army. May be i am just not good enough, which indeed i am. Lousy girlfriend hai....cant even support him n yet still giving him all the shit problems. Still have to keep worrying abt me.

Anyway lost motivation to work recently again. I promise if after this yr, the economy recover n i manage to get my degree. High chance i might leave my current job. Is not that i dislike, but is not a career path for me. Although i haven really tot of wat to do for long term yet, but still will be in financial n banking sector. If i really quit one day....i will miss all my friends n colleague that i actually met. Really, until now this is really the best place i ever work. N is also during this period lots of things changes n lots of ups n downs.

My friends n dear said i change quite a lot from last like till now. To me the way they sound seems bad...did i really change? May be what i really change was that, nowadays i know what i want. I might not be that simple n pure innocent small little gal anymore. I admit i do change...but am i really that bad???

2009-01-15T17:01:00.005+08:00

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2009-01-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

Oh...dear been long long time since i last update le...i am not MIA...no worries...just that a lot of things happen recently.

2008-11-26T23:15:00.002+08:00

Emot dear...recently dun know y ppl get so emot easily...including me...haha....anyway dec will be a busy and pack month for me. Lots of event and exam coming up...looking forward but not exam haha...i will have a long long block leave, almost like near 2 weeks dun need go work. Only occasionally go back for a few days in between. My birthday coming too...hehe...22nd this year...k la...although i always complain old, but in fact i still think ok la..haha...recently so lazy to update also. K la...tired shall end here.

2008-11-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

Hmm...last few weeks a lot of personal thing happen. But finally everything has been settle le...wow...looking forward to dec every year. Coz is always my birthday and near Christmas, so many event coming up. But even b4 i can enjoy must clear my exam first hai...jia you jia you...now branch open from 11am - 7pm, which mean my offical working hr is from 10.30am - 8pm sian all the way.....

Anyway i suddenly realise i have a bunch of really good friends. Serious....everyone treat me so kind, i really love my friends.From my pri sch, sec sch, poly, motorola, elite,starhub, SMA schooling, now OCBC...along my life i met so many kind soul. Lishan, Jia hui, Chun Mei, Zi sin, Huling, Jun, Christian, May, Irene,Margaret, Benson, Chris, Choo Lee, Meng hao, Eugene, marie, adeline, bom,marlon, yong seng, sotyna,valent.....and seriously a lot a lot of ppl more......sorry if yr name is not here...too many le....i thank everyone of them to walk into my life one way or another. Everyone treated me well...

2008-11-23T23:37:00.007+08:00

2008-11-10T17:25:00.003+08:00

So many things happen this few weeks. I am so tired also. But finally everything comes to an end, i decided what i wan. I cried, i am upset, disappointed, broke down. But i know things are going back to normal now i hope. Times and times i hurt dear again, this time round too. I am a very easily contented person, i get touch easily when ppl just treat me better. I almost almost wanted to end it so much, but thanks to dear, the things he told and promise, i decided to give each other second chance. I believe in him, he have to gain back my 30%. Hopefully i dun hurt another person too, but to some extend i did ba...hope not too deep. While things haven really started. I am just so bad in handling this kind of things.

2008-11-05T01:19:00.006+08:00

Went to st james that halloween nitez....can c a lot of ppl dressing up, but we just min...thanks to eugene he bought us all the things.

Anyway a lot of things happen between me and dear this few weeks, but only through incident that happen, then we r able to know what each other are thinking.

2008-10-31T00:17:00.008+08:00

Actually still got a lot of photo to post. But anyway we really had great fun that nitez, we got first somemore...happy happy...somemore super high that day haha...

Just some stupid post.

2008-10-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

2008-10-28T00:24:00.003+08:00

Argggg....something wrong with the internet i think, it took me so long to upload just this few the photo. I guess will post another time. More nice photo to come wor....

2008-10-23T23:39:00.003+08:00

Tml will going to be a very fun day. Oh no...i guess i sure dun have mood to work tml. By 2pm we can head off to expo le...means only work for hmm...2 and a half hour only.I like our dress all these, including those guys that is singing. So cool and fun. I going to take tons n tons of photo tml hehe...great great. So excited....

Oh ya...by the way is our company dinner..we having some dance performance hehe...hope we can win.

2008-10-22T21:06:00.008+08:00

Hmm...long long time didt update le...been so busy this few weeks. Or should i say i purposely make myself busy. A lot of things happen...so tired, didt slp well. Anyway hope things will get better and stop running away from it. Coz it has been for me for the pass few weeks. I just wan to hack care everything. Which i did to some extend. I just want to numb myself by keeping myself busy. Really really busy.

They are so cute...sunday went road show at compass point. Hai...nowadays economic so bad...no referral fee also, so have to do all this OT to earn more $$$.

This 'bed' was actually given from my friend. I got a bit shock when i receive from him. Coz he knows i have not been slping well this few days due to some reason. Really a surprise from him. Thanks to him anyway. Truly a thoughtful friend....

2008-10-11T02:09:00.002+08:00

Yeah....weekend is here again....need to have a good rest!!!!

Anyway first time i experience a bike riding from my friend, cool. At first was a bit scary, then when at the expressway i was like thinking hmm...can go slower, scary haha...but was actually running at 90km/h which is consider normal i guess for them. But over all bike experience, still feel dangerous haha...not use to it.

2008-10-08T20:50:00.004+08:00

Piss Piss off with my mum. Y i have just a mum in this family. She is just being so unreasonable. Because of her, i have not been slpy well this few days. Is affecting my work and my life. Coz of her i been so shag at work...i spain my neck, not enough slp, having headache all becoz of her. The whole family had enough of her. What can i do? She is my mum? But deep inside my heart i only acknowledge my dad. I only have my dad. My dad work so hard since young for us. What she do? Nothing? Only thing she knows, create trouble, find tons n tons of things to quarrel, make no peace in this family. No no no no contribution to the family at all,none none none!!!! For the past 10 over years she been like that, ever since i am young. She just wont change. What the hell is she thinking i really dun understand.

Ppl might just say after all she is still yr mum, i say NO! I totally have no respect for her. I try to think other way, be optimistic, but i just cant, totally cant. I always tell myself to forgive her forgive her...but she is getting from bad to worse. Is really pissing me off when it started to affect me so bad nowadays, i really need my rest. Have to work and study so hard at the same time, i just need my rest. Have peace n quiet in this family. Is this so hard? How can i get out of this family? I am tried, very. Until to the point, i even have bad headache when i came home just now.

This always lead me to think, y marriage? And this is the shit thing i see in my whole life since young even until now. Where is happiness? Where is love? None...is all bullshit!!! N even better affecting their children. Seriously, i still dun believe in marriage. Marriage to me at this point in time is just a piece of legal paper. A paper to just tell everyone u r husband n wife. There is no love in the paper. If u truly love each other, i dun c a point to even get marry. It does not make a different with or without the paper. Dear i know u will be disappointed to see this. Coz i rem i once told u i dun believe in marriage, i dun wan to get marry in the future. Then u reply me, 'then y r we tog now, if we wont get marry in the future'. You told me is up to me believe or not, no one can help. I wanted to believe, but....i dun wan to c myself landed in a failure marriage. I dun wan dun wan dun wan. I fear, i scare. I need time.....i am tired of her...really tired.....

Can anyone make me believe?

2008-10-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hai...sth wrong with my camera, went to repair it. Thus, for the time being no photo can be uploaded. Once i got it back, will post tons of photo haha...

I realise sometime simple things that u do can actually brighten up yr friends day, so y not do it? Simple gift, simple msg, simple action. I felt great when i actually can cheer my friends up. Although i am not very good at giving comments and advice, but i appreciate it when there is any problem they will think of me and share with me. I really hope the ppl around me can be happy=). I hope i can influence them, let them think that the world is still beautiful. Thus, in the first place i have to believe it myself.

However, there are times and period that i am emot and down. I tried not to, but it still occur to me occasionally. I try my best to always stay cheerful and optimistic. Sometimes u have to look at things at a different direction. Then u will realise and better understand the situtation. Be OPTIMISTIC!!!!This is what i am still trying very hard to learn.

Thus, part of my life in aim is to influence others to be more optimistic....sound very hard. But never try never know=)Jia you....miss chen....

2008-10-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

Thanks dear....for everything and everthing....

2008-10-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey....Cheerful Miss Chen is back....back back back....i love myself for being the cheerful xueshi (emot once a while, but like what i promise it wont take long, i just need a few days).

I went to look for dear after may chalet(omg...cab fare $36 from pasir ris to woodland*fainted),anyway we had a long talk b4 we head to bed, like till 4am. Dear were more emot then me. I guess he was really too stress le....really stress. I am glad that he told me a lot ytd. We just hug on to each other and ans each other qn. End up it seem like i misunderstood dear. I am glad that we talk....only through such incident it make our relationship stronger. I really felt much better now le...i nv regret going to meet dear ytd...lucky we met...if not i think thing will get worse. Is always better to talk to each other. We didt quarrel but just very upset of each other ba...thanks dear...any dear very funny also lor...bought me a apologise card but end up still complain to me $8 so ex...haha...ok la...really a bit ex...

Thanks to all my friends for being out there for me when i need u ppl.......

2008-09-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

I hate myself...what had i done again...i am making myself upset again shit...i hate it...i mess it up again...chen xueshi chen xueshi CHEER UP CHEER UP...

What is happening to me...even after going out and when i am back alone...i still felt upset. What is the point of being kind? Be kind n understanding for what? Be a gd person so what? Y am i thinking so much? Just not coming down to look for me...y i had to feel so upset. OMG...wake up wake up!!!!

I just hate myself y i have to love him so much. This is how he treat me....i feel like resting for a while, a while...y am i asking and demanding again...i dun really blame him, but just disappointed (And shit radio 933 is playing all the sad song while i blogging making it worse). Can pay more attention to me? Can care for me more? Can have some action? I dun feel love now...y as a bf u can even be lazy to send me home but not my friends? Isiz it... the most basic duty as a bf ba...?Y my friends seem able to do more(ok...i know is a very unfair statement). Hai...very sad rite...just becoz is bf, bf have to do more. Becoz if friends, totally wont have such problem le...i guess that is the diff between bf and friends ba...

In his shoes, weekend is for him to take a rest. Dun feel like going anywhere, just feel like staying at home. Blame me pls....i try to understand, but since i can get angry over this matter mean even tot i understand but i cant accept it totally. I am bluffing myself actually. Is time i need to do some reflection...i need time....may be after a nitez i will be better (which usually are).

I need to learn putting myself first in front b4 him, which i am still trying. Is I I I I that matters n more impt...not him. Xueshi love yourself more....whatever u feel like doing just go ahead, follow yr heart. Yr heart will bring u....dun think what is rite or wrong....there is no such things as rite or wrong anymore. Even ppl might think is wrong but who cares, is my own life. I do whatever i feel rite...enough for comprising...enough for being a kind, understanding, reasonable gf...i dun c the point anymore. WHAT FOR? What is the point of being a kind gf.

Ppl i am very emot here tonight....whatever i say tonight, i didt go through any deep thnking. It might sound not me...but just let me vent out my anger...disappointment.

2008-09-25T00:15:00.005+08:00

Hai...my dear ah neh seem to be feeling very down nowadays. And some of my friends, i am really glad that when they need a listening ear....they will think of me and give me a call. I appreciate when they actually call me up. Although i might not able to give any gd advice, but i too hope it helps.

Very nice cake but was very expensive also...our dear christina so happy about it.

Was also taken long ago...bought for christina...haha...for no reason.
This was like dear 21st birthday cake from his friends. Haha...still rem he pass his birthday by playing majong in his friend house.

2008-09-24T01:16:00.003+08:00

Law Law Law.....Company Law, Contract Law, Financial Law...OMG... so many law....who can help me!!!!!

Anyway going to use one of my off day this week on friday to stay at home guai guai do my revision haha...hopefully....

2008-09-22T23:45:00.004+08:00

After always reading someone blog, i always felt fortunate. I am a lucky gal...that met a wonderful guy (although he might not be gd in every aspect, but is enough for me). He love me, he treat me well...just that sometime the things he said does make me upset. However, for 4 years plus...i had a very smooth journey...hardly any ups and down. If it does have...it all started from me. I am really glad that i met dear...we hardly quarrel, but i admit nowadays i am making more demand. We respect each other, trust each other...believe one another.

I believe in order to love someone, first of all u have to love yourself. Love yourself, pamper yourself. He/She is not your everything...dun put all your attention to he/she. Will feel very stress and no space to breath...eventually the relationship will just ended. No matter how u love the someone, u still have to control yourself. How i wish i can tell he/she this...but erm...haha...not in a very right position after all. Y she have to let herself suffer? Y must it be him? Too stubborn...but i guess is easy for me to say over here, but hard to perform.

That is y, i am a fortunate and lucky gal...lalalala....thanks dear.......

2008-09-18T23:45:00.009+08:00

A lot of Photo to update

Still like white colour hehe...

OMG...i really love this pair of

Eugene do the cake himself for christina. What a rare case that a guy will actually know how to make a cake. And best of all, it tase nice just a bit too soft.

WOW....chili crab sia....is so super nice la.........

This is the one with soup.....nice also.

The rest are our side dish.

All my great OCBC friends.

Like couple hor.....but they r not.
Choo Lee and his GF...his gf so pretty and sweet looking.
Yup..stupid chris and the gf...
"Sister and brother"

What am i doing haha.....

Neo print which was taken long ago....

2008-09-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

Why are gals always so emotional?

Anyway i like the way christina always call me 'shi shi',it sound kind of sweet to me haha...make my day happy.

Today went out with li shan they all...she was not in a very good mood. End up all of us buy shoes back, 2 pair each(me, jia hui,li shan) and 1 pair for mei. Haha..most guys will nv understand y we like to buy so many things, like shoes, clothing, bags and stuff like that. Is kind of enjoying just now when shopping with my gf, release my stress at work. May be i am a person with very low stress level(can't accept too much stress), so when there r things that i cant complete or customer issue not solve on the spot, i will start to feel stress liao...that is me.

Anyway this few days i felt that my relationship 'graph' is sloping down again. Should do sth about it. I got so many things i feel like saying but i dun know where to start, and how to go about saying it.

2008-09-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

I am FRUSTRATED and really in a low and bad mood today. Guess it will last it for quite a few days. If i dun smile or as chatty please be more understanding...i am just in a super bad mood.

Irate, incensed, enraged, infuriated, furious, mad; provoked, irritated, frustrated.

I need to find a way to release my frustration!!!!!

2008-09-15T00:45:00.004+08:00

Firstly those words in blue were what i thought/believed was quite true.

CAPRICORN the Sea Goat (ME)

Capricorn and Independence:
Capricorns are very independent because they know their capabilities and therefore they rarely trust others to finish details, they like to do it all themselves. Capricorn is the longer of all zodiac signs.

Capricorn and Friendship:
The Capricorn is the strong friend, they will always be there to help, they are very sympathetic, caring and helpful to a friend in need. A Capricorn will get someone back on their feet again with a steady plan for success and for all this, they expect nothing in return. The Capricorn friend is deep and mysterious and full of intrigue, there always seems to be something going on in their mind.

Capricorn and Business:
The Capricorn personality is geared towards that of leadership and achievement, they always want to climb the corporate ladder and be the best they can be. Capricorns have excellent sense of time and manage it very well, they are excellent organizers. Capricorns are very creative, not spontaneously creative but it is incorporated into their time management skills and their ideas for executing a plan. Capricorns make good, wise investments because they look at the long term and what will be the most beneficial down the road.

Capricorn and Temperament:
Capricorns might seem melancholy and stern because they live by self-discipline and responsibility. They evaluate everything and they don't take daring chances without weighing the advantages and disadvantages first. To the onlooker, they might seem boring but it is the serious drive and structured way of life that the Capricorn feels safe with. Capricorn's self-sufficiency is often mistook for coldness, they are not as cold as they seem, this might be apparent just because Capricorns like to do everything themselves this way there is no worry about something not finished or not done properly. It is all about control of their surroundings and their daily lives and sometimes this spills into other people's lives. They believe they can give structure and organize other people's lives too, which they can but others might see this as intrusive and not welcome the Capricorn's suggested changes. According to Capricorn, there is only a right way and a wrong way to do things and this idea makes some Capricorns closed minded, stubborn and reluctant to agree with others. This is an ongoing lesson for Capricorns, knowing that there is more then one way of doing things and even though their way is usually right, it does not mean that they have to impose their ways on others.

Capricorn Deep Inside:
Capricorns have this sense of melancholy and necessity for structure and work because inside they feel they are unworthy and need to continuously prove their worth. Once they realize that all they need is self-love, door will open and they will see the world in a new light, one that allows for pleasure and guilt-free fun. Capricorns most important need is security, financial and material security. This is the driving force behind their ambitious character and all other personality traits of desire to succeed. They are very concerned with their public standing and their prestige. Capricorns are loners but they also need to feel appreciated, but they are excellent at hiding this truth. Capricorns are very self contained and they have many faces they present to the world, they are known as aloof and indifferent but this is them concealing themselves from the world, unfortunately, they may never know who they really are. This causes feelings of insecurity and causes them to question their own self worth. Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once they let someone in, they do not want to let them go and emotional connection makes them feel vulnerable yet satisfied at he same time. This is an ongoing internal conflict of contradictions inside the Capricorn's mind.

Capricorn in a Nutshell:
Capricorns are very ambitious people, they always have something they are pursuing and they want their lives to be fulfilled and important. Capricorns are extremely patient and will wait a long time for something they want, when the opportunity arises, they will plan their steps carefully to others, they might appear hesitant but this is not true, they know that there is only one chance to succeed and they are filing together their information to take the proper steps to accomplish their goal with flying colors, not just second rate. Capricorns have a very active mind and strong powers of concentration. Capricorns like being in control of their surroundings and everyone in their life. Capricorns are very cautious but this only to survey the situation before leaping in, they will never make a hasty jump in. They accept change but introduce it slowly so they can get used to it and incorporate it into their life. Capricorns tend to see life in black or white, definitive's only. There are no gray areas for these are areas that are not understood and this makes Capricorn feel uncomfortable. They tend to be in control in a romantic relationship that way they are never vulnerable to another person.

What it's Like to Date a Capricorn Woman:
Deep inside, she is romantic and loving but it takes the right man to expose this. On the outside, she may seem like she does not care much for love. The Capricorn woman is perfect for the man who likes a challenge. It will take time to get closer to her, never make her rush into a relationship. Be patient because she is. Capricorn woman is very classy, upscale woman. You have to woo her and court her like a lady. Shower her with nice gifts (but not too expensive, she is a very conservative spender and expects you to be also). She will dominate and control the relationship but in her intriguing subtle way, let her take the lead, she won't steer you wrong! She will lead the relationship in the right direction because she is smart and practical. She will offer you a long lasting, real, loyal relationship with all the right ingredients for happiness.

What it's Like to Date a Capricorn Man:
The Capricorn man is very physical and passionate, but not emotional (on the outside). Deep inside he yearns for love but this takes a long time to become reality, he is very reluctant to place trust in another person. Show him how much you admire him and earn trust gradually over time. He is very faithful, probably the most faithful of all zodiac signs. Underneath his secretive mysterious nature is a romantic streak with a strong sensual side, this side is completely hidden and once unlocked, you'll be amazed at the transformation this man has undergone! Patience and trust is key with a Capricorn man, he has so much to offer the right woman who will wait for him.

Sex With Capricorn:
Capricorns have stamina, lots of it. They like nice, classy surroundings and a comfortable atmosphere. In the bedroom, they will last all night and want some more. They are very physical and good at what they can do. Do not expect any creative or zany positions, but expect it to be good.

Capricorn most Compatible with: Capricorn, Taurus, Cancer, Virgo

Worst Match for Capricorn: Sagittarius

LEO the Lion(DEAR)

Leo and Independence:
Leo is very independent but they need something to control and someone to admire them and appreciate them. They are fully capable of being greatly successful on their own but they are much happier if they have an audience and a following of people who look up to them. They would prefer not be alone.

Leo and Friendship:
People are attracted to Leo's zest for life and their warm spirit. They have the ability to lift up one's spirits and provide encouragement when times are rough. Their enthusiasm attracts people, Leos are social butterflies, not because they want to be but because people always naturally gravitate and surround the Leo. Leos are very difficult people to not like, they are usually fairly balanced, realistic people. They never dwell on the past and they will think you are strange if you do. Some Leos might be too caught up in themselves and be very self-centered but they are never too self-absorbed to help anyone who needs it. They pamper their friends and treat them well. A Leo is the ultimate friend. They do not hold a grudge and they are very forgiving. They have respect and understanding of people's differences.

Leo and Business:
Business dealings are easy and successful for Leo, if they are in command and control. This can cause conflict in the workplace should the Leo not be in a position of superiority, but they usually get there eventually thanks to their powerful drive to succeed, in other words, they are excellent leaders because this is their kingdom they have to control, and they do it well. Leo has an amazing ability to get along with people and they work best in a group as opposed to alone. They can be very diplomatic in a group setting and can delegate people well, however Leo will not take orders. They need to give orders but with their enthusiasm and cheerfulness, other people do not have a problem taking orders from a Leo because they are never condescending and they treat others with respect and equality. Leos are full of drama, flair and extravagance and this reflects in the business world. They make an impact, they make a difference in the workplace and help to keep the parts moving in sync and iron out any problems before they arise. If the business fails, that means that Leo fails and they are extremely determined not to fail. Leo is the most extravagant sender of all astrology signs. They will not over do it but they will surround themselves with luxury as much as possible. They will never settle for second best.

Leo Temperament:
Leo loves the new and extraordinary, they despise dull, regular routines and if this is what they are faced with, they will simply create their own drama and excitement. This makes Leo prone to stir up a situation out of nowhere just for something to keep their vivacious temperament satisfied. Leo has an amazing ability to bounce back from any feelings of despair or unfortunate events. They do not like to be unhappy, it hurts their pride so they will take matters into their own hands and make things right again. Leos could come into conflict with other powerhouse type of people who will not take orders and not give an inch, Leos will not budge their opinion, they will understand and accept opinions of others but they do not take well to people to try to impose their beliefs on them. Leo most often have the temperament of a demanding, spoiled child but this is only shown if someone steps on the boundaries of their kingdom. They react this way because of their territoriality.

Leo Deep Inside:
Leos are extremely sensitive but they hide that very well. Leos love praise and flattery, their egos demand respect and adoration. Leo is all about pride. This can cause them to be self-centered but the warmth of the Leo heart keeps it under control. If Leo's audience (otherwise known as their friends) do not provide the needed appreciation, Leo is too proud to ask for it and they will suffer a hurt ego, but no one will ever know and they will suffer in silence. The secret of the Leo is that they need to be needed.

Leo in a Nutshell:
Leo is the lion, this well suited symbol represents Leo very well. They possess a kingdom which they protest and cherish. The are high esteemed, honorable and very devoted to themselves in particular! The kingdom could be anything from work to home to a partner, whatever it is, you rule it. Leo is always center stage and full of flair, they enjoy basking in the spotlight. A Leo always makes their presence known. Leo are full of energy that acts like a magnet for other people. Others are attracted to Leo's wit, charm, and what they have to say for they speak of things grand and very interesting. Leo will never settle for second best. They want only the best which can cause lavish excessive spending habits as they enjoy their life of luxury, which is all to easily justified by the grand and magnificent Leo! Public image is very important to Leo, with luxurious possessions and ways of life, this keeps the public image in high standing. They will do whatever it takes to protect their own reputation. Leos are very generous, kind and openhearted people. If a Leo is crossed, they will strike back with force but they are not one to hold a grudge, they easily forgive, forget and move on. Leos are always trying to make things right in the world, they have larger then life emotions and they need to feel like they have accomplished something at the end of the day. They react to situations with action instead of sitting back and thinking about it, they are not impulsive however because they look at the future and consider consequences of their actions.

What it's like to date a Leo Woman:
The first step is to give her praise and adoration. The relationship will never work if she does not receive this from you. Do not look at other women when you are with her, she has to be the only one in your eyes. The thought of competition with other women completely turns her off, for she is marvelous and grand and better then any other woman (in her eyes)! Be prepared however to compete with other men. She attracts men, deliberately or not, because of her dazzling personality. She makes a good partner because she gives undying affection and love and makes you feel really mood about yourself. She is kind and supportive with an adventurous streak, she is always fun to be with. Leo woman will dominate,. But not completely for she still needs the man to lead the way and give her the desired sense of approval, she looks up to her man. Leo woman is perfect for the man who is affectionate and has a strong character but not too controlling. She needs someone who is passionate about everything in their life and who strives for the best in everything, because so does she.

What it's like to date a Leo Man:
The Leo man falls in love easily and it usually does not last. This is because his emotional ideals of a grand and magnificent love affair quickly turn into reality. Leo man needs a woman who is grounded and in-tune with the realities of life so she can help him keep his feet on the ground. He may seem like he is casual and detached about love but this is not the case, he needs adoration and approval and if he receives this, he feels quite passionately inside and will treat her with amazing affection and be a wonderful cheerful companion. The Leo man appears to be a rock solid unemotional king but truthfully, he is very sensitive. He wants a woman who caters to him, not in a demanding way but he thinks he is entitled to this because of how great he is. Leo men are prone to be self-centered but underneath they are gentle and have lots of love to give providing the woman can give him what he wants. Leos get along with just about anyone and just about any type of girl is suited to him. The woman who caters to him and overlooks his faults (he thinks he does not have any) and the woman who does not nag at him will obviously have preference and a chance at a long term relationship. If the relationship lasts, eventually she will have to teach him that he is not the only great thing in the world.

Sex With Leo:
First impressions would tell you that Leo is all about the kinky and novelty, but that is not so. They are deeply sensual and passionate and enjoy posh surroundings, such as candles and scented oils and lots of affectionate physical contact such as massages and rubbing. They like sex to be familiar, not necessarily routine, but they like to know what's going on. This is because Leo always has to be the best and if there is a suggestion or something offered that they have never done before, they would rather pass on the chance then attempt it and be only satisfactory. Leo has mastered the moves he know, so do not be disappointed with the lack of novelty and variety, because Leo is very good at what they can do, they are the best.

Leo most Compatible with:Aries, Sagittarius, Gemini, Libra

Worst Match for Leo: Scorpio

2008-09-03T23:29:00.005+08:00

Firstly i have a lot of things to update today. Here it goes....

See this cute little gift. Is actually given by thoughtful Eugene. Oh..ya he given one to christina too. He met me,christina and may out today...both of us went to eat first b4 christina and may join us(coz they always have to do their balancing first). Anyway eugene kept telling me got sth to give me but stupid him just dun want to say at all haha...kept giving hinds but i just cant get it. At first said what is a agreement between me and him, then what 60plus number, and is my achievement. Totally cant figure out what is the reason y he want to pass me the thing. Until christina say...is it your result...then i oh ya...then i finally know the answer haha...blur and stupid me lor...
It happen while we will chatting in msn that time, he promise to get me a gift if i manage to pass my exam. As i say ' OK lor...' that time, but i was kidding at that point in time. I totally forgot i actually did say that until when he told me just now haha...ya u know usually ppl chat in msn, will just chat and forget about it, but i was a bit surprise that mr PRC rem it haha...So that is the reason he bought me and christina this cute cute thing. He was quite thoughtful at least i felt. By the way they gave this cute thing a name call 'Chen Shi Yi'...chen is the surname(coz my surname is chen), shi yi in chinese means lost of memory. Coz they always say me very forgettful(omg). Anyway when i see this 'chen shi yi' i will remind the meaning behind it. To study hard and even harder, is an encouragement gift from a great friend. Although is something small...but i appreciate it...at least the effort to rem(is more then enough) and went to buy it. Thanks Mr Eugene!!!

Anyway i went to do my spectacle at the price of $200. This is my new spect...if got time i will take a photo of my own with this hehe...

Mei mei...went vivo that day coz is mei mei 22nd birthday...the gift from jia hui and li shan...end up we went to eat hong kong cafe.
Trying to feel and guess what is inside.

Li shan trying very hard to take this photo by getting all of us into the it haha...
Umbrella as a gift..but is a cute one....
Dear cute mei mei...

Oh...that sat met up with dear...coz his friend 21th birthday...actually ask him out for meal. At fish and co...2 of us actually finish the whole plate, where as his 4 friends have to share a plate and they r full. Oh man...me and dear is really big eater...haha...
His poor friend being us to stand on the chair and we have to sing him birthday song...
Dear was not in a good mood today. Going to ask him tml coz he went to bed le...hope everything will be fine for him tml.

Pray!

2008-08-28T22:33:00.005+08:00

Great News Big News

Haha...no la...i got my result le...i sound so happy everyone sld know at least i pass le ba...at first when my classmates msg me during work i was like oh result is out result is out. So nervous...trying to access to it but stupid me forgot my password. Or sld i say it seems like i nv log in b4. End up of coz i cant check, so disappointed. Most angry thing was my company cant access to hotmail...argggg...i am already so impatient and yet i cant send e mail to ask for my password reset. End up i have to rush home to do it, still plan to shop on my own a while after work. But anyway i still went to make a spectacle haha...

It coz me like $200 lor...hmm...consider expensive???I not sure...but i felt a bit. I realise i got a bit cheated. Here was how the story goes. Last time i use to wear contact lenses, n at the point of time when they check my degree was like 125. But just now when they check again was only 75. How can it be??? And years ago b4 i wear contact was also like 75 only. That was y i got a bit shock when they told me 125 that time. Now again is 75. So obvious the 125 was a big mistake OMG...how did they actually check my eyes in the first place. Anyway i decided to get a spectacle reason being, most of the time i only wear during classes. So i realise it will be a waste that everytime i get my contact i only wear it like less then 10times per month, which was not worth it. Hopefully the new spec wont look too bad on me. Like "Ah Du",with the "gong gong" look.

Back to my result, first time i got quite worry about my result. Partly coz is a degree which i dun wish to fail at all. And 1 module is like $2000(a lot to me, hard earn $) and 3 months it takes to complete. Thus, i dun wan to fail...then waste another $2000 and 3 months again to retake. I rather i take my module slowly(the speed that i can manage), like 2module in a sem rather than 3module(which is too much i feel).

Most impt must thank my classmates,although i dun think they have my blog address. Still want to special thanks to Bom and adeline. They are my problem solver,patient and always willing to teach me. Without them i guess i will be very lonely in class and might not be able to pass also.

Oh ya...haha...after so long it seems like i nv say wat is the mark. Ok...i got 63...not very gd i know,no flying colour...just a credit,but i am glad that at least i pass. YEAH.....jia you jia you for the rest of the module...

2008-08-27T20:04:00.006+08:00

3 Parts to update today

I almost finish using up my foundation le...so finally i went to watsons and buy the brand from ZA.

Bright-up powder reflects light and smoothes imperfections for luminous, even skin.
Anti-shine powder absorbs oils for all day freshness.
Easy touch up anytime, for a beautiful natural look.
SPF 20
Vitamin E
Wont clog spot

Haha..i realise their packaging always like to put until very nice. With so many good points, dun know real or not. By the way the price is $24.50.

Yup concealer from face shop...coz i got $5 voucher so decided to buy from there. Is a dual concealer with stick and liquid at each end. $26.50 i think.

This was like taken few weeks ago, when having poly gathering at bugis. Can u imagine our class only got like less then 10 gals.

The guys all in NS.

Haha...i post this coz it really look funny...compare the photo above this. Look so much different and super funny la...this look like from dun know what country,like uncle age 40 haha...OMG.

These are my starhub colleagues. Hmm...not really very close with them coz i only work there for like less then 2 months...but not too bad la..they are very good friends also..due to some stupid reason i was being ask to leave. Anyway i was happy to leave there which leads me to where i am now. Most of them had left too...but just a gathering to ask all of us back.

I meet them like once in a blue blue moon haha...

2008-08-26T23:50:00.007+08:00

KTV Session

Went party world on last friday with all my ocbc colleague. We had great fun and laughter. By the way all of us age between 21-24(so young haha..), thus i guess that is the main reason why we can get along so well ba...the photo below shall tell the story...

Meng hao sing until like haha...hmm...the song very hard to sing ma MH???

Funny faces from gals.

Eugene hand trying to be funny.

Because eugene(our PRC) can really sing very well...dear irene is recording using her hp...wasted la...he can sing super well...especially some song can really melt you. I mean he is not a pro singer without proper training all these,and he can sing that well is really super le...everyone including christina agree haha...
See what the stupid or hmm...sld i say scary face christina is making haha..

Meng hao stun with eugene punch haha...meng hao was shock...

I like this picture the most haha...everyone so guai when i ask them to do funny faces. All so guai listen to me oopes...this one look like little pig but very cute haha...well done PRC.

This is scary to me haha...but well make an effort at least...
Hmm...look almost the same as meng hao, both of them copy each other haha...
This one another cute photo done by christina...i always like her funny face. Everytime got different look haha...

Anyway i wanted to upload more but i think cant coz too much like will slow down the speed of blogging. Coz i still got a lot of other event photo which i haven blog. May be some other time ba...

Conclusion i really like this bunch of colleagues, actually is friends more then colleagues. They are so fun loving and great friends to be. Although we came from different branches, but we still can come together, is really "nan de". That is part of the reason i like working over here ba...(first time in my life i love my job) with all the nice ppl around i love it...thanks ppl...next outing will be ice skate ba...which they suggested.

2008-08-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

Haha...kind of miss dear at this late moment time is almost 1am. I still rem christina once told me y she dun want to get a degree. Reason being because her dream was become housewife in the future,which i mean is very normal for any gals to have this kind of thinking. It does happen to me at times. It will be a waste if she got the degree and not having to work in future. I totally understand her feeling.

Sometimes i just feel like rely on dear totally, totally and totally. Especially when i am in a very very low mood, nth seem to motivate me, unhappy, upset, tired in everything. These were the time that i need him badly,just rely on him totally. I am just like a normal gal at times that need someone to pamper, dote on, care for and be "xiao ni ren" in front of him. Sometime i just got the feeling that is he just everything in my life, yup everything. Just wonder i cant live without him. What will happen if he is not beside me. That is really how i felt when he got no time for me. I do felt lonely at time when he is busy in camp. Real lonely, and this is when all my friends play a very impt part in my life. Thanks to all my friends, u all will always be there when i needs u.

Sometime when i start to have this kind of thinking, i know is bad i cant rely on him just too much. I always tell myself i do got my own life, dear is not my everything in life. I still got my studies, work, family, friends. Only by telling all this to myself, then i can stop relying on dear so much. But sometime i think i very useless haha...if happen a friend ask me out and dear, end up i will still chose dear (80%). Which i always tell myself cant cant, but my heart just cant listen to my brain. Sorry friends i know it does happen quite offen. Dear seem like always come first, but i will try to balance it out. But i still have to thank dear for letting me rely for more than 4years le...share my joy, excitements, sadness, complain. He will listen and give some little encouragement, although not like hong seng or PRC, but is more then enough for me le... Sometime i dun need anything, just need his words of encouragement and that will be enough. I am a easy contented person. Ya...when nitez falls, when everyone start to fall aslp, in their dreamland, when i am alone, i will tend to be more emotional, think a lot, just like now.

2008-08-18T22:39:00.004+08:00

Today is my first day back to work after a long week break for my exam. Actually didt really study also haha...been watching olympic, my sear christian going to scold me haha...anyway i just hope for a pass seriously, i just dun want to fail. The result will be out only in more then 1 month time ba..by then i already start new sem le...which i will be taking 2 module this time round. Will be more stress and tiring ba...guess every week 2 nitez of study will have less time to go out le ba...hai...hopefully i can cope well.

Yup one good news to share, next month will be my officially 1 year in OCBC le...boss ask me question today. Whether am i comfortable working here...of coz i said yes haha...coz next month,by right after one year my rank will be bank officer le...Yeah...actually nth too great about it also, but think my pay will raise a bit haha...(better then dun have).From polytechnic trainee bank officer(PTBO) to junior supervisor(after 6 month conformation) to bank officer(after 1 year). Although most ppl will get sort of promote...but it will still depend on yr boss, so am i really great boss give me the chance. Hmm...after bank officer then i dun know what rank le haha...hmm...customer servicer manager???i really not sure. Anyway most of the time i call irene(orchard point SA, use to be my branch teller but promote liao...), she seem unhappy or stress over there. Coz she keep saying can come back lucky plaza a not. I am great that i can be here, coz is really a good place. I like the colleague very well really...the working timing, the distance(orchard which is quite near my house), pay not too bad so so...compare to my others friends( got a few hundred more then them..haha..but still not enough too spent). Not too stress so that i can cope with my study. Everything seem almost perfect to me now. I dun wish to have any changes. In OCBC i know a lot of great friend too....

Ok...going off to watch my olympic hehe...oh ya meeting benson also long time nv met him out after he quit. Sort of miss him(will his silly joke)haha...oh ya and mei they all. Meeting Eugene, irene and meng hao for dinner on thursday. Friday meet li shan, jia hui for fireworks. Haha...for so long time i nv go out le...is time i enjoy again hehe...

2008-08-15T01:35:00.003+08:00

I am a bit emot this few day again haha...long long time nv update le...preparing for dear birthday, my exam hai...like a lot of things happen recently.

Anyway something came across my mind suddenly. A question that i want to ask. Should u go with someone u love more? Or someone that love u more? Is a very hard question that i dun think will have a solution. Some will go for the first option, others might go for the second. As ppl always say, is always more fortunate to have someone that love u more. Which i agree to certain extend only. Haha...like me and dear, i always felt i love dear more then he does, but this comment might be very unfair to him. He does but he dun show out (which i believe), good and bad in some ways. Becoz there are certain things that i dun rem but he does (at least he make an effort, if not i am too forgetful as usual haha...), which i was surprise at times. He can be sweet at times(only when he is not tired, once he tired will have attitude problem liao haha...). Most of the time he make sacrifice but he wont tell me (that is him).

When a relationship start to have problems (dun worry i'm not, just some comments here), think of the first time how u met each other, how u hold each other, think of his /her good points rather than weakness. Is easy to say, but hard to perform i know. Many relationship fell becoz they only manage to see each other weakness. However, one person weakness can be their strength , y not look at different direction? I always think dear is a very humble person, he dun show off and show proud in anyway. E.g...dear is an officer now. Some ppl will think that oh they r officer so they r high above others ppl and show off their rank or what( i believe that there r such ppl around). But as for dear i dun think so at all, he will tell me officer only what, what is the big deal. Simple sentence like that, u can tell. Only humble ppl will success in life...becoz they keep learning, they dun feel that they r the best. Although sometime he will joke around and say his studies very well, erm...but is true anyway haha...(he just say for fun).

Oh no...i start to feel slpy le..the time now is 2.10am. Dun know what is dear doing right now, didt not recieve his msg. Guess this few days he must had busy with his things again. Hope he is doing fine, kind of miss him now. Me going to slp le...tml wake up hopefully can concentrate study my exam which is coming OMG.

2008-08-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

Hmm....bad cough this few days or sld i say weeks haha...very bad....still coughing now. Oh...i think i very funny, sick le but i still can crave for a lot of food. Feel like eating chili crab badly haha...sat going with dear to eat the vienna buffet, most pro lunch buffet ba...coz dear want come back watch ndp. Anyway hopefully my cough will get better only. And next whole week i will be taking off...waiting waiting...can rest the whole week, but of coz need to study.

2008-07-30T23:27:00.007+08:00

Hmm...lots of things happen this few day. Firstly, i took MC today again hai...i dun feel like taking, coz ya taking mc dun really reflect good in your work. Coz last week i already took one day le...n today i took one again. Actually if my work dun need me to talk then is ok. But my job need my voice to serve customers and talk to customers. Ya so no choice, when i woke up i totally got no voice. When to see another doctor this time round, i think this time the medicine the doctor gave me is better, does had some effect on me. At least i dun cough that much after taking this medicine. Coz the previous medicine that i ate dun help at all, is like getting worse. Hopefully can recover faster and everything back to normal.

Met hong seng and mei today. Poor hong seng got some problems, but i am very glad that he actually share his problem with us. This show that how impt we are....really. Hope everything will be fine for him. I also dun know how to console him, is a bit complicated.

Stupid MSN cant sign in for the whole day, dun know whats wrong.

Monday got my test result, got 66/100. Hmm...initially i was happy coz i pass. But later i realise i can even do better, i wasted it. I aim for a distinction but dun think i can get it le...no matter how good i do for my finally exam, after i calculate can only get a credit (60-70marks). Which i aim 70 and above, shit.....pass is not enough. Anyway exam on the 16aug. So ppl...i will be busy study and might not able to meet u all in augest after my exam, hope u ppl understand.

Anyway so sweet of benson to actually msg me yesterday. Coz he saw my blog. Ask me what happen, y got problem nv call him and tell him. I mean he is really a good friend(he is just like my older brother), although he left the company le...but he still bother to care for us, which i mean very nan de...thanks benson kor kor haha...

Dear will be booking out tml,but he got his chalet to attend tml. So he will be free from thursday till sunday ba...i can only meet dear after sat, coz i got to work at sat also. I want watch batman...everyone was saying the movie was good. We wanted to watch since few weeks ago, but cant find the time out. Hopefully this weekend we are able to watch it. Last few day a bit emot, i mean in a good way. Hmm... realise i am very fortunate in this relationship. In a relationship i believe most impt is trust. We trust each other a lot, and i believe we nv lie to each other b4. There was once when i went club with benson and his guys friends, i wanted to lie that there are gals also, but i told myself i cant. If there is once there will be twice. End up i told dear the true, ya dear was very angry with me and i learn my lesson. I just cant bring myself to lie to dear...in any case or anything. Coz i believe he have the rights to know everything in my life. I am glad that during this four years dear still with me. I mean i wont know if next time he enter uni or the society, he will definitely knows more gal. And by the time i guess is normal that he will make compare. Then i might not be the one that he will stay 4ever le...ya is very hard to say really. Is not that i dun have the trust, but is normal. Of coz i hope all this wont happen. But really if one day it happen, i also have to accept it right haha...(pray hard wont....). Anyway i am happy with this relationship, compare to others i always felt i am very fortunate. I am a lucky girl...i met someone i love so does him.

I actually felt touch when that time raining, dear took an umbrella and fetch me to his house(ok...now u ppl must be thinking is ah yo...is a normal thing that he must do ma...coz i am his gf). But to me at least he make an effort to do it ar...he can say no...and ask me wait for the rain to stop. I just think although he is my bf does not mean he have to do this kind of things.And when i fall sick that day, i actually slept the whole day at his house, felt bad coz i didt actually have the time to accompany him. He didt wake me up and let me slp as long as i want. He still rem i told him my lower back actually ache, and he help me massage without me telling him to do it. I really appreciate the things his does, although it might not seem great. Small small little things will make me happy and fly to the sky le haha...(Ok...ppl i admit i am a super easy contented gf haha...can say me silly or what but this is who i am).

2008-07-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

Can my parent divorce...seriously...i got my reason. Sometime divorce might not be a bad choice. Life may be better after it. I broke down today....coz i had enough.

2008-07-23T17:57:00.002+08:00

I on MC today...my throat were already quite dry last few days, but only until today i decided to go see doctor. I tried to drink a lot of water le...but still like that. Anyway the doctor very friendly also haha...Gave me a lot of medicine sia...sore throat medicine, cough medicine, and something like sweet de...for me to eat to smooth my throat. Still can talk haha...but just the throat very dry.

Anyway dear 21st birthday coming soon le....Oh no....i still dun know what to get for dear and what to plan on that day. Anyway suggestion friends????? Need ideas badly haha....

2008-07-23T00:26:00.002+08:00

Quick update coz going ot slp le....today one whole day stay at home to do my online assignment. I think i very stupid lor....did a lot of careless mistake which can be avoid totally,then at least i can get full marks haha...on average i only get 79/100 which i aim for at least 80marks. The online assignment contribute to 10% of our overall course. Which is like a give away marks. so must try to get as high as possible. Hai...i am not happy with what i got, coz i know i can do it better. So the whole day from 4pm till 12pm...(in between got rest of coz) i been sitting in front of the computer doing the assignment. My off day was burn...sad....4ever when i take my off or leave is for my study. Is not like for me to rot or rest(how i wish i could). But anyway glad that i finally finish it...was worry last few day cox i had not done. The load was of my mind now,can rest for a few days. But major exam coming soon again....OMG. I scare...by the way...my lower back ache recently. I try to rub myself but still pain. Any suggestion as how to ease the pain?Is it coz i stand too long with heels during work?

Anyway poor dear was appointed as duty officer today. Until now 12plus le...he still cant go to bed...and tml morning he have to wake at 5.3oam. I always compain i had a hard life haha....guess dear is worse then me right now....anyway choo lee(new PFC) told me a sentence which i find it quite true. "Understanding is one issue, but accepting is another issue". Coz i use to say i understand understand dear...but ya...accepting is another issue. Did i really accept?Or just understand without accepting?

2008-07-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today went lunch with benson and boss....coz benson last day tml. Boss is a person that for every sales staff that came in he will give them a treat, and when they are leaving he would gave them a treat too. Hmm...i find that was very nice of him to actually do such thing. Coz seriously speaking sales staff come and leave quite often, that mean boss have to keep treating haha...

Anyway i think he should spend more time with the operation side(teller,bank officer), to us sales side(pfc,sa) he quite ok. But to the operation they dun like boss. Coz they felt boss dun understand them, so i really think boss should talk to them more,understand them more...may be treat them more too haha...I starting to respect boss more compare to when i just came in. Me too dislike him at first. Ok...still declare i dun respect my manager....good colleague but not good manager. Her rules are death....like that means like that....sometime can really get so angry with her.

I was thinking if one day happen my boss and manager going to know and read about my blog...wow....die sia haha....but i really realise most of the branches CSM they dun hide in the back room de...will always come out and help the tellers and sa. Hmm..wondering y my branch CSM is like that. That is y i dun like to work under a female manager. They can be emotional at times which is bad. Haha....oopes me too...

2008-07-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Today went to have branch dinner buffet at Orchard hotel. Coz benson leaving on this coming thursday(his last day), thus we went to have simple dinner and bought his a bag. I forgot to bring camera with me tonight hai....

Anyway lets talk about benson....he is a funny,entertaining guy. Dun know since when he become my lunch kaki....most of the day we had lunch together. Now he left going to blame him if i have to eat alone in the future haha...(kidding...can always look for other ppl oopes...hehe...). But i mean really he is a good colleague,good friend cum good lunch kaki...he does really help me a lot when there is customer issue and problem that i cant solve. He will ask me what problem and if within his mean he will be more then willing to help me. Really appreciate him...(benson dun be too happy when u read it k....but is true la..haha...). Hai...sad he leaving....no one to crack joke,talk rubbish in branch,try to act like boss when boss not around. Question ask what we doing. And end up most of the time he will be walking around talking to ppl...i really going to miss him as a friend. Oh...ya...and he like to joke around our relationship haha...always say we have something...(sort of girl and boy friend). Just in case u ppl dun know, he is already attached so am i. But ya he purposely like to make fun of me. The more i denied then more he will say,until i got no words to prove myself. Even boss say he treat me very good haha....ya but all is for fun...he just like a older brother to me....ya take gd care of me when in the branch haha....hungry will give biscuit.

All the best to him....can he that he is very happy that he is leaving. At least he wont be so stress anymore, dun need to run sales and hit target. He is a good PFC...he dun bluff to his customers(dun be surprise some actually does). He sell his products the right way....letting ppl know all the pros and cons...but yet he still able to sell very well. He use to have a nick name call RP king...that means very good in selling insurance. The king of selling insurance. Anyway hope will be happy at his new work place and dun forget us. Going to miss him....

Dear are quite busy and stress this few weeks, coz he say he have exercise. Told me not to expect too much msg from him coz he will be very busy. But i guess dear had already tried his best to msg as and when he can ba....when he got the free time. Just hope dear can faster ORD really.....ever since he enter NS....hmm....i realise there is a lot of problem coming up....how sld i say...b4 that we hardly cold war,unhappy with each other(does but not that offend). But now is like when he is busy or stress with his NS...then he wont have the time and energy to bother about me. His attention wont be on me and the way he say something dun sound good. Eg like...hmm...i will going to have this and that so dun expect me to have time or whatever with u....(i mean i understand what he means, but just the way he put it across not very nice) In turn, i will get unhappy and angry, and thus do blame his occasionally. Just hope he faster ORD then hopefully will back to normal and everything will be fine again.

2008-07-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

I actually felt bad about what i blog yesterday(may be coz i not emot today le haha...back to the cheerful xueshi). After what eugene had said, it sort of enlighten me haha...from his point of view(as a guy). Funny things was christina end up in our conversion too...with the same problem i face haha...Thus, after yesterday night, eugene was given a new name call Premier Relationship Consultant(PRC). Coz in our company there is a position call personal financial consultant(PFC). So eugene naturally become our PRC haha...is even most high class...premier lei...so we were his premier customer. In our contact, premier customers means very rich de haha...

Sometime is just great that i have this group of colleagues. To me is not anymore colleagues, is more of friends to me le....becoming very close. Of coz i nv forget my old friends......i really nv nv....i still miss my mei,li shan,jia hui,ling,xin,hong seng,class 5a,my lao po marie...and many many more. I felt fortunate with so many friends around me, thanks ppl...coz of u guys i nv run out of friends and nv felt boring in my life. Kind soul and kind ppl....

Specially to dear..."Dear dun mean to let u felt lousy and bad,just want to say out how i felt. I know i sld not had add in more problem and stress to u especially when u r inside =). Sorry...we shall be lovely again =)"